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Programming Note: I'm going on vacation next week, so don't expect much here for the next two weeks. Poorly Organized Thoughts About: Jury Duty My sweetheart and I both received a jury duty summons on the same day. They were delivered to our PO Box, simple plain envelopes with the county seal on the front. This is probably the third or fourth time I’ve been summoned in my life, but the first time at my current residence. We did think it was a little weird that we both got summoned at the same time for the same service date. It was the style that is not uncommon, where you call in to the clerk the night before to find out if your physical presence is needed. I had ample notice to let my job know, although there were some key events that had to be either rescheduled or covered by someone else. But with the call system, I was in a bit of a limbo, where I didn’t know one way or the other if I would be available. If I wasn’t needed at court, I could just do my job as planned, but if I was a lot of gears had to move quickly. But we had a plan in place, which to my mind, all but assured that I would be called in. Sort of an inverse Murphy’s law sort of thing. But it was not to be! I got called in the night before to perform my civic duty. And so did my sweetheart. We were in two different groups, but called in to the same location, “the Jury Suite” the following day. So we got up and drove down to the county courthouse complex. Our host for the day, the clerk who checked us in and would be por primary point of contact for the day was downright shocked that a married couple had been called at the same time. She confirmed that we were both willing and able to serve that day, I guess in case we had to deal with childcare or similar, and then got us checked in. We weren’t the first ones there, but we were probably one of the first five. The jury suite had chairs for probably 75-100 people and over the next 30 minutes it filled up to about 80% capacity. This was already a nicer experience than what I had when I served in Austin, where potential jurors basically waited in a hallway outside the courtroom until we started. The suite had wifi, and they explicitly told us it was fine to use phones, tablets etc. until we were actually in the courtroom. At the tip of the hour our host came in and started giving us our official introduction to the process. As a group we had to stand and take an oath of service, after witch we watched a pair of videos. The videos were on physical DVDs, which made my little physical media nerd heart proud, and we watched them in a TV wheeled in like one of those carts teachers use when they’re having a bad day and don’t want to work very hard. The first one was about how the courts actually work. It gave us an overview of the different jobs that people would be doing in the court room, like the judge, defense, prosecutor, bailiff, clerk, and court reporter. It also covered the entire process of being a juror, from how the list if potential jurors is generated to what the responsibilities of the jury are throughout the trial process. The whole thing felt a little basic to me, but I realize that when you’re pulling from the entire eligible county population, you can’t expect anyone to know the whole process and all the parts in advance. So telling us what we needed to know, without expectations, was the right choice. The second video was more interesting, if only because u didn’t expect it. The topic of video two was unconscious bias. The video outlined what unconscious bias is, how it effects everybody to one extent or another, and gave us some tips on recognizing that bias and working against it to be fair as jurors. Not much in this video was new to me, but I was impressed that it was something the court took seriously enough to produce a video about and show to all potential jurors. I should mention that our host for the day was incredibly good at her job. It was clear she took jury service very seriously, but that was because she understood how important it is for a functioning justice system. She was experienced enough that she must have been doing this same thing for years, giving the same speeches and explanations, but she still seemed excited about all of it. I was already excited about jury duty, because I’m a weirdo, but if I wasn’t, I suspect some of her enthusiasm would have rubbed off on me. The rest of my service was spent waiting in the suite. There were three cases on the docket that day which needed juries to be selected, we found out later, but we never made it into the courtroom because as each case came up, the defendant accepted a plea deal instead of going through with the trial. Our host tried to spin this as an example of the justice system working, and that our presence was what convinced the plea deals to go through. I’m a little more skeptical of that, as it’s well documented that the vast majority of cases never go to trial in the first place, and that’s because DAs/Prosecutors push incredibly hard for plea deals instead of trials, usually by over-charging defendants with the expectation that they will plea out to lesser charges. I don’t actually like that the system works that way, but as a potential juror, all I can do is show up and hope the trial actually happens. Once all three cases ended without a trial, we were dismissed. We all lined up to get our official letters confirming our service (to take back to our jobs and prove why we’d were out.) Our host continued to impress me by remembering almost everyone’s name as they came up to get a letter. I can’t imagine holding that many people’s names in your head after talking to them individually for less than a minute each. Over all my jury service was a bit of an anti-climax after all that build up, but at least it wasn’t an explicitly painful experience. Plus I got to get some reading done. Stuff I’m Watching It’s always a little touch to watch the final episodes of a TV series. It’s even worse when you’re watching a show that was cancelled after these episodes were made, but before the production knew about it. Which exactly what had happened with So Help Me Todd, a silly and slight legal procedural about a guy working as an investigator at his mother’s law firm. The show lasted two seasons, but really only one and a half with a strike-shortened second season. It’s not exactly a comedy, but the core cast of characters get up to a variety of shenanigans each week and while you won’t learn much about the actual practice of law by watching it, you’ll probably have a good time. The show takes the occasional mild creative risk, and isn’t afraid to challenge the status quo of the show in any given episode. All of which is to say that I think the show was a little too weird to survive at CBS. To be clear, the show is not weird. There is not any fantastical element, no aliens, no supernatural monsters, The biggest twists to happen are usually akin to someone coming home early. But CBS has a very limited set of criteria for tv shows they consider to be part of their brand. You know the ones. Shows like Blue Bloods, or shows that can be spun into franchises about dour people looking grumpy at crime scenes. Shows like the three different FBI branded shows, or the NCIS franchise, or Fire Country, which is getting its own extended universe next year with Sheriff Country (a terrible name in a sea of awful names.) Even So Help Me Todd’s name is too weird for CBS. It’s a pun (not a good one) for crying out loud. Do you think the network that greenly a 6th and 7th NCIS TV series (NCIS: Origins, coming this fall and NCIS: Tony & Ziva coming whenever, I don’t care) was going to being impressed by a pun? Anyway, the show is fun, which I can’t say for most of CBS’s other primetime programming. I also finished watching Sex Education, which started life as a charming British show about the son of a Sex Therapist (played by Gillian Anderson) starting his own underground therapy clinic at his high school. By the last season it really wasn’t about that anymore, but it also wasn’t sure what it wanted to be about either. We followed these characters for four seasons, but by the end I wasn’t really sure why. There wasn’t a lot of overlap between them anymore and I couldn’t help but wonder why some were still on the shows, when others had been abandoned in previous seasons. But I watched it all, so there’s that. I expect more people will be looking into it over the years, because one of the main characters is played by Ncuti Gatwa, who is now on everybody’s radar as the current incarnation of The Doctor on Doctor who. It’s fun to be on the other side of the fandom for once, where I’m familiar with the Doctor’s actor’s past work before meeting them as the Doctor. I remember when the internet was digging up everything David Tennant had been in pre-doctor and watching it even if he barely made an appearance. That’s the only reason I ever watched the pretty terrible remake of the Quatermass Experiment. There’s every indication that Gatwa is going to be a great Doctor and so people will absolutely be rediscovering this show before long. This Week's Crazy Ex-Girlfriend Episode of the Week is Etta Mae's Lament Here's a picture of a cat
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KD^3C^3 - 20240505 They travel great distances to the sound

Happy May the Fourth be with you! Today is the only day you can watch this Video where Tim Russ explains star ways day. Poorly Organized Thoughts on: Bad decisions. Sometimes I make bad choices. I was complaining to a friend about my iPhone ten R, which as a diminished total battery life, due mostly to being over five years old. Batteries don’t last that long with their original capacity. My friend said that he had the same thing and a new battery put a tone of new life into his phone. On more or less a whim, I looked into what it would take to get the battery replaced I don’t have any apple service providers anywhere near me due to my living in The Woods, so the best option was to have it shipped to a service center and the battery replaced there. Of course I would be without the phone for a few days (maybe even a week) but I wasn’t too worried. If you’ve been reading this newsletter for a while, you might remember that I bought a google pixel 3a to load Ubuntu Touch, the linux OS for smartphones onto it. I figured I could drop my sim card into that phone before shipping my iPhone off for a replacement battery. Easy peasy lemon squeezy. Except it turned out to be difficult difficult lemon difficult instead. Well putting in the sim card was easy, because I had a sim tool in my desk drawer and my cell phone carrier is fine with swapping sims between devices without any particular notice. I spent most of the day using the linux phone as we went out to mail my iPhone off and pick up groceries. While I was in town, everything worked fine. But then I go home and I eventually realized that mini calling wasn’t working. Living in The Woods, I have no cell service, so instead I rely on connecting to the network via wifi. My carrier has wifi calling and text, which is great. But ubuntu touch doesn’t have this feature. It turns out the technology is proprietary and locked up between the carriers and phone companies in a way I don’t completely understand. But what it means is that I can’t actually use this phone as a phone. At least not with the current OS. So I have to re-install android on it, a prospect I do not relish. I’ve use android before, and even tried the android spinoffs like cyanogenmod (now called LineageOS) but since switching to an iPhone, I never really looked back. I’ve had android for a few days now, but even with that it’s been a rough adjustment. Whichever version of android I’m using has gestural controls, but not the same ones that ios has, so I keep swiping or flipping or whatever and the wrong thing happens. I would probably be able to better shake the muscle memory if the gestures I am using didn’t do something on the phone. So my lizard brain* gets the haptic feedback that whatever i just did worked, even as the rest of my brain gets mad because the phone isn’t doing what I want. But at least I’ll be back to my trusty iPhone soon. But not with a new battery. Oh didn’t I mention that? Apple won’t replace the battery because the phone also has a crack in the glass backplate. (why are we still making phones with extraneous glass?) I should have known better. Apple is notorious for this sort of thing. And I should know, I used to work there. The only option for me (because I have multiple “issues” that need to be fixed is to do a full device replacement which costs $400. For hundred dollars. I could get a new in box iPhone 12 for roughly the same price on eBay (I checked.) I’m not paying four hundred dollars for a “new” iphone that is five years old. So now they have to ship the phone back to me, unrepaired. My next step will likely be to take it to a local mom & pop shop and have them do it. Either that or go buy the supplies on fixit and give it a shot myself. Oops, I just checked and it’s a 40 step process just to remove the battery. I’m not going to do that. I may make bad choices sometimes, but I’m not going to let that be one of them.  *I feel obligated to note that the lizard/monkey brain whatever understanding of how the mind works is apparently vastly oversimplified and not even a good or useful simplification like pretending imaginary numbers don’t exist. It’s bad science and I’m strictly using it for artistic license. Stuff I'm Eating I don’t know if it was Futurama’s Bachelor Chow or that guy who lived on monkey chow for a week that made me first think about a “human food” version of dog kibble. Now, before we get too far, I like food, I like food with different flavors and textures and I like the experience of cooking food. But also I’m lazy sometimes and spoiled for choice. How many times have I been caught in that “I’m hungry, but I don’t know what for” loop. So the idea of an all purpose food seems like a good one. At least occasionally. And I’m not the only person who’s thought of this. There’s actual companies out there making products called Soylent and Huel, but both of those are liquid/shake concoctions rather than something with any textural experience. Plus the names are really off putting. Soylent is named after the famous all purpose food in the movie Soylent Green, which my dude, my guy, you don’t want to name your food after that. ITS not as funny as you think it is. Also the Soylent company (and resultant products) in the movie were bad guys, profiting off overcrowding and poverty, naming your company and product after that isn’t ironic, it’s bad marketing. Plus the founder is exactly the sort of guy who would think naming your company Soylent is a good idea.  And Huel sounds like the noise you make when vomiting. But the dream lived on. When would I have my own freeze dried balls of food? Starfield, Bethesda’s latest space based RPG even has a company called Chunks, which manufactures cubeoid food products in easy open pouches. The Expanse books and tv series has Kibble, a common staple among belters. Whole researching fan made recipes for that kibble, I discovered TVP or textured vegetable protein, which turns out to be exactly what I’m looking for. First of all, the name is the sort of straightforward uncluttered sort of thing, that tells you what it is, but also has a relatively useful initialism. It comes in a few different shapes and sizes, but at the core it’s a plant based meat replacement that is relatively shelf stable and in certain configurations comes in little dog food shaped chunks. It even says chunks right on the bag! How do I know this? Well I bought a couple bags. This is a product typically used by vegetarians or vegans who want a convincing meat substitute. I don’t actually need it to be convincing, because part of the appeal to my brain is the inherent inauthenticity of a human kibble product. The bags only just arrived yesterday, so I haven’t actually eaten them yet, but I’ve got a simple curry dish I’m probably going to throw them into this week instead of diced chicken or ground beef. Should be fun! Or weird! This Week's Crazy Ex-Girlfriend Song of the week is The End of the Movie (reprise) Here's a picture of a cat
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KD^3C^3 - 20240428 Eighty dolls yelling "Small girl after all"

I hope you slept better than I did last night. Nothing was really wrong, I just didn't sleep well. I hate that because I don't even have a cool excuse, my body was just saying lolnope. A Thing in my Possession: Really Janky Headphones I was at the airport waiting for my flight back home and I wanted to listen to a podcast. I hadn’t brought my regular headphones, because they’re bulky and I was traveling light. So I stopped in the little market in the south terminal to see if I could find some cheap headphones I could use for the flight. I picked out a pair that looked like iPhone knockoffs, mostly because the lightning connector I would have to use was prominently displayed on the front of the box. When I checked out, the clerk checked with me to make sure I had an iphone, because they wouldn’t work with anything else. I confirmed I did, and left with fifteen fewer dollars, but one additional set of headphones. I found a seat in the terminal and plugged them in. Almost immediately, the popup on my screen for connecting apple bluetooth headphones popped up. It displayed a set of BeatsX wireless headphones and asked if I wanted to connect them. I figured someone nearby must have tried pairing a set right as I was looking at my phone. I declined, since I didn’t want someone else connecting their headphones to my phone. But when I went to listen to my podcast nothing was coming out of the earbuds, instead still playing through the phone speaker. I tried unplugging and replugging the. headphones in again, and the beatsX display popped up again. Well what the heck, I thought. I said connect, and then the audio started playing correctly. These were wired headphones, but they apparently worked by tricking the phone into thinking they were bluetooth somehow? I can’t imagine I bought actual bluetooth headphones for fifteen dollars at an airport (average markup 200%) so something else had to be going on. I opened up the bluetooth settings and sure enough there was a new device connected labeled only “Baets” (spelled the way) I chuckled to myself at the strangeness of it, but went on anyway. The strangest thing was when I got on the plane and put my phone in airplane mode again, they stopped working. So whatever was going one, turning off Bluetooth was going to be a problem. I manually restarted the bluetooth and left all the other wireless settings off, and listened to podcasts for the rest of the flight. I probably won’t be using them again. Poorly Organized Thoughts on: Vertical Video I’ve been around the internet long enough that I vividly remember the time before smartphones. And before smartphones, there were cameraphones. Cameraphones didn’t take great or even good video, but they did take video. And sometimes we uploaded those videos to the internet. In the early days of smart phones, most people watched those videos on their computers, even if they were taken on a phone. And this saw the rise of the Dreaded Vertical Video. Instead of taking up the whole 4:3 ratio screen, instead the video took a small sliver of it down the middle. It felt like we were losing so much to the giant black blocks on either side of the screen. There were campaigns trying to teach people to turn their phones to the side while taking videos, because even though they looked good on your phone, they would look terrible if you watched them anywhere else. Anyway, tiktok is here now and we lost the vertical video war. By far the largest majority of videos taken on smart phones these days are on phones and viewed on phones and they’re done so in a vertical format. We’ve learned to watch and frame things in a new way. It has changed the language of video production. I don’t know if we’re too far away from a feature film presented in a vertical video format (possibly something in the Screen recording genre like Unfriended or Missing or Searching.) At one point I would have been madder about this than I think I am now. I’m not happy about it, and I probably won’t be watching anything longer than 5 minutes on my phone anyway (long videos are for the big screen, short videos are for the little screen) and 5 minutes is pushing it even then. Which is funny because tiktok is explicitly pushing for longer videos and won’t even monetize your account if your videos aren’t more than 60 seconds long. But people are out there making them and some is out there watching them. I hope they’re all happy. Stuff I’m playing I played a lot of games on my long weekend, but the one I keep telling people about was a warehouse-scale VR experience. There’s a few companies out there doing this, since all you need is a bunch of VR Helmets and some specialized controllers. Plus the software and a network powerful enough to run eight of them simultaneously. And a warehouse space. But’s it’s probably easier than starting an escape room. But like an escape room, this is a communal experience where you get to solve problems in real time, and the problems are things like “too many zombies.” We played two 30 minute sessions, one in a tropical island environment shooting pirates and another in a zombie infested city shooting zombies. The VR level design was really clever, putting you in situations where you were literally walking in circles around a big rectangular space, but it felt like you were traversing actual distance. There were some clever safeguards to prevent you from running into your fellow players, and you got to actually coordinate fighting hoards of zombies or pirates together. It was a little disorienting at first, but quickly you get immersed and by the end of the hour we were all sweating from the exertion and excitement.  Highly recommended if you get the chance. I also downloaded the version of Fallout 4 with updated graphics that just got released. I’ve been spending some time in New Vegas, so switching to the improved graphics in the sequel has been a really impressive jump in quality. I think it’s great that so many people are exploring or rediscovering how great these games are, since the player counts across all of them are though the roof since the tv series dropped on Amazon prime. The series is pretty good too. This Week's Crazy Ex-Girlfriend Song of the week is Thought Bubbles Here's a picture of a cat 
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KD^3C^3 - 20240414 That other song was wrong

This might be hitting your inbox a little late today, and you can blame my cat. For the last three nights, she has decided that it's good and fun to wake me up sometime around 2AM and not let me get back to sleep until 5 or so. she insists I pay attention to her, by lightly tapping my arm with her claws outstretched. It's not quite a scratch, but it also isn't that. I'll pet her for a bit, but if I stop (because it' the middle of the night and I fell back asleep) she goes back to scratching me until I give her the attention she so desperately craves. So I'm a lil seepy. A Thing in my Possession: A Pinhole Eclipse Viewing Box So the total solar eclipse happened this week for a large portion of the US population. I hear it was real neat. I was in a zone that only got about 85% coverage of the sun, and even then it was really cool. I spent an hour last week making an eclipse pinhole viewer, using a cardboard box, some duct tape and a piece of a coke zero can. It wasn't exactly the method in this video, but it was pretty close. I know the eclipse glasses were everywhere, but I think the pinhole viewer is actually a cooler, and dare I say it, better way to view a partial solar eclipse. Eclipse glasses aren’t bad by any means, but the thing I don’t like about them is the very thing they are designed to do: block out light. You shouldn’t look at the sun. It’s a bad idea in almost every situation, even, or especially, during a partial solar eclipse. But if you are going to look at the sun, doing so through heavy filtration is a good idea. The sun is too bright, and the level of filtration you need is significant. Most welding goggles actually don’t have enough flirtation, because the sun is brighter than the plasma arcs that occur when welding. I think we’re so used to it, that we often forget just how dangerous the unknowable ball of fire in the sky that gives us all life really is. So eclipse glasses are good and cool. But a Pinhole viewer works a little differently. instead of filtering out parts of the light, the pinhole viewer uses all the light in a smaller quantity instead. It also creates a photograph of what the eclipse looks like with nothing between the light and your eyes. Photograph’s etymology means light-writing and that’s what you’re doing with a pinhole viewer. You create n image of what the sun looks like in exact moment you are looking at it. My pinhole viewer was so precise that I could actually see the clouds around the sun while it was peeking through them. And it was all in glorious color! I tried to take some photos of it with my phone, but they didn’t turn out well. I wish I had thought about it earlier and I could have built in a hole to slide my phone through. Oh well, there’s always next time. Poorly Organized thoughts On: Quitting a Youtuber I don’t want to slag on YouTubers too much, but I’ve seen a couple videos lately that made me so disgruntled that I had to shut them off. It was almost a visceral reaction. I’m not here to make this a callout, so I won’t name and shame and the two examples were on relatively small channels (although larger than my own.) The first example was a woman who was doing a book blog about some books she had finished recently and wanted to share some of her opinions of “mistakes” “feminist” books make. I was willing to give the video a try, because I like checking out smaller channels, but she started off with a condescending and inaccurate definition of what feminism means. Feminism is a complex and robust field, and I’m willing to accept a broad variety of intersecting definitions. But this definition was very specific and very incorrect. She then followed it up with her first example of a “mistake” that a “feminist” book she had read made. The example she gave of a mistake was a narrative choice about certain characters in the book, but the larger problem is that the book she used wasn’t even what I would call a feminist book. I wouldn’t call many books feminist, anyway because I like to think of feminism as a lens through which to examine any work of art, rather than a specific mode of creation or output, but within the very narrow and incorrect definition this youtuber outlined, it technically qualified. But the narrative choice in the book she described didn’t feel like a mistake to me; it felt like a choice. I haven’t read this particular book, but I also suspect that the choice was actually more nuanced in the text than this youtuber made it out to be. So at that point I checked out and did not learn what other “mistakes” “feminist” books make. The other example was more egregious because it included an actual factual error. The context isn’t important, but the content of the inaccuracy was that in 1935 a prize was offered in a contest. The prize, as described in the video was Fifteen Euros. This pinged my radar, because I know the Euro didn’t; exist as currency in 1934. I wasn’t sure exactly when the Euro came into existence, but I remember it happening, so it wasn’t in 1934. I did a very quick wikipedia search to confirm it was created in the 1990s. While I was there on wikipedia I also checked the wiki page for the subject of the contest, to see if maybe the video author was converting to modern money or something, but nope, the original prize was 15 British Pounds in 1934. Not Euros, and not adjusted for inflation or converted to a different currency or anything. I’m mostly fine with videos that tell people cool things. I don’t think they’re as interesting to me as videos with analysis or personal experiences, but I understand why they get made. But if you’re going to just recite a list of facts at me, you better get the facts right. You better believe I clicked the “Don’t recommend this channel to me” box on both of these. Stuff I'm Watching First, an update: I got Dick Miller replaced by a different Richard Miller on the IMDB page of that movie. Good things can happen, as long as you set your sights real low. The Criterion Channel, the streaming platform of the Criterion Collection, announced a new feature this week, a 27/7 stream of movies on the platform. You can just click a button and be watching something unexpected. It's all the joys of turning on a random movie on cable some Saturday afternoon without knowing what it is before hand. There were some mild criticisms when the feature launched with no warning: the biggest one is that you couldn't see what movie you were watching. You also can't rewind back to the beginning, or save the movie for watching later. You can however pause it. So that's something. They did roll out a solution for the "whats on now" problem, by launching a companion website WhatsOnNow.CriterionChannel.com which is just a very simple page with the name of whatever movie is playing now. Personally I like the mystery and surprise of just tuning in and seeing what's on. I've even gone so far as turning it into a game. I start a stopwatch and see if I can figure out what movie is playing within 30 seconds. I can often do it in under 10. Of course I have a much broader knowledge of the films on the platform than most people, but I'm still pretty proud of my hit rate. So far I've won the game with the following films: Police Story Daisies Blood Simple (actually took slightly more than 30, but I should have caught it sooner) Mon Oncle Umbrellas of Cherbourg Gimme Shelter All of which I have seen before, but most of which I don't mind revisiting. There's a couple movies I haven't solved, but one of them was just starting and so captivating that I watched the whole thing. that move? The documentary Cane Toads: An Unnatural History. I had never heard of this movie, but the opening shots of people looking down on the camera (as if I was a toad?) and either shouting insults or singing praises was enough to get me hooked. This documentary is ostensibly about the cane toad, an invasive species brought to Australia with the goal of fighting sugar cane beetles. It was completely unsuccessful in that goal, but managed to breed to the point of ubiquity in just a few short decades. The movie is a series of interviews with people about their opinions and history with the toads, and these are some wild interviews. It felt like I was watching a lost Christopher Guest mockumentary, but it was all real (or as real as any documentary can be.) I learned about the toads, but I also laughed and was frightened along the way. More documentaries should aspire to be this good. This week's Crazy Ex-Girlfriend Song of the Week is Who's The New Guy Here's a picture of the cat that kept me up all night
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KD^3C^3 - 20240407 Spending days by myself

I'm still not used to the fact that it can snow in April where I live. It wasn't a lot of snow, but it did in fact snow this week for part of an afternoon. Wild. A Thing In My Possession: A Triangle Deck of Cards I really like the "triangle deck" of James Ernest's Pairs. It's called that, not because of the shape of the individual cards (They're rectangles, as usual) but because of the distribution of cards in the deck. It has ten cards, nine 9s, eight 8s, etc. It's a clever structure and dozens of games have been made with it. Pairs, the base game is a simple push you luck game, where on your turn you take a new card or pass and take the lowest card on the table. Because you know how many of each rank are in the deck, you feel much safer taking a a new card when all you have is a three, but if you have an 8 and a 9 in front of you taking another card becomes much riskier. If you end up with a Pair of the same rank you get points for the value of the rank. Points are bad and you keep laying until someone hits a predetermined number of points. That person wins and everyone else loses. I've been thinking about other games you can play with this deck, and I landed on Cockroach Poker. Cockroach Poker is a light bluffing game, where you have knowledge of the cards in your hand, and other people try to pass you cards and can lie about what they're giving you. The core moment in the game is deciding if you want to call out if you think the person is lying or telling the truth, or instead Pass the card on to someone else. If you guess wrong about the person lying, you take the card and put it in front of you. If you guess right, the person who gave you the card takes it instead. But the deck has an even number of each type of card. If you sub in the triangle deck, you then have additional knowledge that there are a lot more of certain types of cards and very few of others. This adds a delicious frosting of additional imperfect knowledge to the an already wonderful game. Poorly Organized Thoughts On: Dick Miller Dick Miller. He’s a guy. You might see him in a movie and go “Hey it’s that guy!” Dick Miller is so much a “That guy” in movies, that there’s a documentary about him called ‘That Guy Dick Miller.” A month or so ago I watched Chopping Mall, a 1980s movie about a group of horny teens trapped in a shopping mall overnight with killer robots. It’s exactly the movie you expect it to be, good or bad. But about 20 minutes in, Dick Miller showed up as a Janitor with just a couple lines. I was so excited, I said “Hey, it’s Dick Miller!” to nobody in particular. I got to thinking about how many movies That Guy Dick Miller must have been in, and it turns out, a lot! I thought it would be a fun ongoing project to see as many of the 139 movies he has been in. I made a list on Letterboxed called Phallus Molendinum (faux latin for Dick Miller) and got to work watching movies and listing them there as I watched. when I got the urge I would pull up the list of all 139 movies he had been in on Letterboxd and sort and filter them until I found one I wanted to check out. I’ve generally been leaning towards his earliest or least popular works (least popular is a metric that Letterboxd creates, but doesn’t explain exactly what goes into it) as I figure If I start with the more obscure stuff I might find some hidden gems on the way to the more well known movies he has been in. Notice how I mentioned 139 movies a couple of times up there? I’ve been looking at the list enough that the number stuck in my brain. So imagine my surprise when I opened the list this week and noticed that it had ticked up by one. Letterboxd now listed 140 movies in the Dick Miller oeuvre. I was pretty sure he hadn’t been in anything new since he died back in 2019, so I started sorting the list to see if anything stuck out. I was worried that I would have to carefully search each of the movies to see what changed, but I got lucky, because the newly added movie was literally the first on the list when sorted by release date (Old->new.) Dick Miller, more than once, told the story of how he got started as an actor. He moved to Hollywood to be a writer, but while he was waiting for that to take off, he found his way onto a movie set where Roger Corman was working, and Corman hired him as an actor. His first role was on a low budget western called Apache Woman. He played an Apache, because it was 1955 and nobody thought that was a bad idea. This has been confirmed by Roger Corman and others. And you can find the movie and watch it too. I did. But now his first listed movie was something called Intermediate Landing in Paris. I’ve never heard of it, but that’s not unusual for me to never heard of a movie. But what was weird is this movie is a French/German collaboration from 1955 that is so obscure that only 5 people have logged having seen it on Letterboxd, and all of those logs are from more than 3 years ago. The IMDB has a single review from someone who watched it. And that review is from 2009. This isn’t Roger Corman Obscure, it’s a whole other level. If Dick Miller was in a French/German co-production as his first film, don’t you think someone would have mentioned it before now? I think so. So I think something is up. I know that Letterboxd pulls data from The Movie Database (instead of IMDB) so I go there. TMDB is a much easier to edit site, and people can make changes pretty much any time they want, with no oversight. But there’s an edit log so I can find that someone added Dick Miller to the cast list just a few weeks ago, along with some other people.  Was someone trying to rewrite history? Or was someone just doing their best to accurately reflect what they thought was the truth? I needed to find out. My gut said there was no way Dick Miller was in the movie. But can you track down an obscure film from 1955 that never even had a physical media release in the US? The internet can. I started posting about this mystery on my mastodon account and after a day or so, one of my internet friends found a streaming copy of the German language version. I didn’t care about the language, since I was looking at faces instead. My first stop: The opening credits. To my surprise there is someone named Richard Miller listed in the cast! Was I wrong? Was this actually a movie we can add to the Dick Miller canon? Was he actually in a movie that came out before his commonly accepted first movie role? Did he actually fly to another country after moving to Hollywood in 1952, but before he got his “first” acting gig with Roger Corman? I was going to find out. I didn’t watch the whole movie, as there were plenty of dialogue scenes with people who clearly aren’t Dick Miller, but I scanned through it and am now confident that whoever Richard Miller is, he isn’t the Dick Miller known and loved everywhere people say “Hey! It’s that guy!”  Of course, actually watching the movie isn't sufficient for the folks who run IMDB, because I have submitted a correction multiple times, but it has not been approved, regardless of the evidence I shared. I even watched the whole movie "That Guy Dick Miller" to make sure there weren't any errant mentions of working on a movie in France. So anyway, the IMDB is incorrect and will likely stay that way. This Week's Crazy Ex-Girlfriend Song of the Week is Ping Pong Girl Here's a picture of a cat
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KD^3C^3 - 20240331 This car is protected by Viper

I don't have much to say this week, so here's some stuff from other people. The Dead World of Blippi by Nathan J Robinson (from 2020) explores the world of online children's entertainer Blippi and finds it hollow.  Modern web bloat means some pages load 21MB of data - entry-level phones can't run some simple web pages, and some sites are harder to render than PUBG - A clunky headline, but it points to something important. When my family was first on the internet we used to joke about how one day the internet would load like cable channels, you would click a button and it would be there waiting. This was based on the idea that would stay the same and bandwidth would get ever faster. Well bandwidth did get faster (in general) but websites bloated and bloated with all sorts of invisible garbage behind the scenes to load some text and pictures. I Can Stop Playing Balatro Whenever I Want - A short video exploration of what it's like to start playing Balatro, a digital card game that has sunk its teeth into me. 2024 Hugo Finalists Announced - I don't think anything I nominated in the big slots became a finalist, but that just means I get to find new books! Also there's a nice number of Chinese language finalists, which at least some of the fans from the Chengdu world con last year took advantage of their nominating privileges. Regarding HIGHLANDER 2: THE QUICKENING by John Bierly - I discovered this week that despite its reputation I really like Highlander 2 - The Quickening. And not in a so-bad-its-good sort of way, but actually genuine enjoyment Sorry to everyone who still thought I had good taste. This week's Crazy Ex-Girlfriend song of the week is Having A Few People Over Here's a picture of a cat
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KD^3C^3 - 20240324 You'll feel glorious, generous, gleeful and great

Are daffodils wildflowers? I see a lot of them popping up on the side of the road. Why am I asking you? A thing in my possession: 10 Books from Canada A few years back I made a post on a message board looking for books that had the same vibe as the TV show The Rockford Files. I like the Rockford files as a show where it’s a cunning guy solving mysteries that the cops won’t touch. I was recommended the Ben Perkins mystery series, which is about a guy who does PI work on the side from his normal job of being the head of security for a fancy gated community. He does the PI stuff for beer and car money, because he also likes classic muscle cars. I read the first one digitally, though Archive.org, and enjoyed it. But the reading experience of going through a website with a mid tier UI at best wasn’t great. Sadly the books have been out of print for quite some time, and they were never block busters so they aren’t easy to come by. Occasionally I would drop the author’s name into eBay hoping to get lucky. And get lucky I did! A few weeks ago I found the whole series on auction with a starting bid of 75 cents. What a steal! That 75c was actually lower than eBay’s regular minimum bid, which I quickly realized was because it was listed in Canada. So 75c was actually 99 Canadian Cents. I checked the shipping, and yup it was shipping from Canada, and the estimated shipping to my neck of The Woods was 30 Canadian Dollars (I think they call ‘em Loonies.) 30 dollars was a lot for shipping, but if I bid a dollar, I probably wouldn’t win, and for the nine books in the series, it still came out to about 3 bucks each. Which is what I’d probably pay at a local used bookstore if I stumbled on them there. Of course I’m writing about them now, so it’s already a forgone conclusion that nobody out bid me. Which means I paid one Canadian dollar plus 30 for shipping to have these used paperbacks mailed to me I got to learn about Canada Post, which is their postal service, and tracked the package until it made its way into the USPS. At that point tracking stopped, because I guess you have to pay extra for the USPS to tell you where it is. The books apparently cleared customers though, because after 12 days in transit they showed up at my mailbox. I was hoping the shipping price I had paid was exaggerated a bit, because I felt bad the seller had to go to all the trouble of mailing these books for one single Canadian dollar. But they must have been fine with it, and the postage paid on the label was exactly what I was charged. The seller even gave me a bonus book (which wasn’t a mistake, because it had a slip of paper with “bonus book!” written on it.) I’ve got a beach trip coming up in May and these will now be a perfect companion. Poorly Organized Thought on Surveys: I got a call from the State Health Department and CDC this week. Actually two calls. A couple weeks ago I got a call from an unknown number, and unlike 99% of the time when that happens, they left a voicemail letting me know I had been selected for a state health survey. So when the same number called back I was excited to answer.  I think telephone surveys are one of those things that feel like a relic of a bygone era, but from what I understand they’re actually still pretty common and relatively useful for large scale data gathering. So I was happy to take some time out of my day and answer some questions.  The survey taker was surprisingly talkative as she asked my questions, which surprised me, and even weirder, occasionally gave some mild commentary to my answers. For example after she asked me my gender, and I said male, she dismissively responded “I know, but they make me ask anyway” which I’m guessing was due to the sound of my voice, but was put into stark contrast when she later asked if I was transgender. So the people who wrote the survey knew it was a good idea to include that possibility, but the survey taker didn’t seem to share that idea. In another place she made it very clear that I could refuse to answer any questions that I wanted to, right before asking me my household income, but not right before asking me if I had taken illegal drugs or had sex for money in the past year. I guess she thought would only find one of those questions too personal for me to tell a stranger.  The whole time I was taking the survey, I couldn’t help but also think about how the survey was constructed, why certain questions came in a particular order, or which ones (if any) were tied to the specific things being studied. Generally, the farther afield the question seemed, the more I figured it might be relevant. For example, there were questions about heated tobacco products, which at first I thought were the same as vapes, but it turns out are slightly different, because (as the name implies) they heat tobacco directly. I honestly answered the survey taker that I had never heard of these products, and as such had never used them before. Nor, as was asked, do I ever smell tobacco smoke through the walls from my neighbors (which I don’t have.) Also, I mentioned the “sex for money” question above, but it wasn’t just a yes or no thing. They listed out 5 different activities, of which having sex for money was just one of the options, and then asked if I had done any of the five things in the last year. I’ve heard of this technique in surveys before, where when you’re asking about something where you are afraid the participant will lie, you couch it with other possibilities to present plausible deniability. The other options in this case were things I can’t remember very well because I was distracted thinking about how I recognized the question technique. It’s the same as those social media messages that say something like  “repost if any of the below are true: You like cats You wish for the violent overthrow of the government You’re gay You’re wearing socks Nobody will know which one applies to you!” But it turns out you can apparently do some statistics if you ask this question to a large enough sample size to get useful data and even get a pretty good estimate of how many people like cats or whatever. At the end of the survey they gave me information on how to look up the results when they get published, but also that it won’t be for at least a year or so. Who knows if I’ll remember by then! Stuff I'm Playing I picked up Helldivers 2 to play with some friends and it’s a lot of fun. It’s a squad based shooter where you drop on a planet full of giant bugs, shoot them all and then accomplish a task. But also its’s got friendly fire always on, and you will accidentally kill your squad mates, pithy by shooting them dropping a bomb on them or having a turret shoot through them to hit some bugs.  But if you go into it with the right attitude it’s a lot of fun and accidental deaths are just part of the dark humor that permeates the rest of the game. It’s the sort of thing I would never want to play with strangers however. I don’t need people yelling at me for playing bad. I do that well enough on my own, thank you very much. I’m trying to get through old games I put down for whatever reason, so I’ve been spending some time with Vampire: The Masquerade Bloodlines, which is an RPG from the early 2000s where you play a vampire in a modern day city and have to deal with all that. There’s lots of political intrigue and solving problems though talking instead of killing. Because you can’t actually kill a lot of people without causing problems and breaking the Masquerade, the rules that keep vampires a secret from the public. Which will get you in serious trouble. It’s a fun game, but has a lot of the junk from games of that period. You don’t always know what to do, or where to go, so you wander around and in the process discover new different stories you might not have encountered otherwise. I do still have to pull up a game guide occasionally to make sure I’m not way off base, and it’ great that there are still guides on gamefaqs.com that someone wrote in 2005 to help me out. This Weeks Crazy Ex-Girlfriend Song of the Week is Buttload of Cats Here's a picture of a cat
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KD^3C^3 - 20240317 In an unnoticeable way

It's Saint Patrick's Day! I'm wearing green underwear, as far as you know, so no pinching will be necessary. A Thing in my Possession: A Laserdisc When I was a youth, I would spend literal hours wandering through my local Blockbuster Video as I struggled with deciding what movie to rent. Often I would have to walk every single aisle at least once to make sure I had looked everything over and had carefully weighed all my options. I couldn’t just pick out a movie I wanted to see, I had to pick out the *right* movie. And with literally hundreds of vhs tapes to pick from, I had to be sure. But there were two parts of the store that were safe from my explorations. I still have the rough layout of the store in my mind, so I can even mentally point out where they are. Just to the left of the checkout counter was where the foreign films were. These didn’t interest me, for reasons of  impenetrability. I wouldn’t understand them. I didn’t have my mind opened to the possibilities of foreign cinema until high school when i worked at a bookstore and a coworker expended my horizons through the Criterion Collection and hand recommending me some of his favorite Korean films. But on the opposite side of the checkout counter up against the wheelchair ramp between the two levels (ours was a split-level Blockbuster) were the weird laserdisc movies. I didn’t know what they were, but I knew they weren’t for me. We didn’t have a laserdisc player and I wasn’t interested in movies I couldn’t watch. But I was missing out! I didn’t know it at the time but laserdiscs were the first high definition home video format. It had roughly twice the resolution of VHS, and looked great even on CRT tvs (which was important because LDC and Plasma  were still pretty rare). And because it was the format where you could see widescreen movies, instead of cropped pan-and-scan versions, the cinephiles loved it. I didn’t even know I was watching movies in a different format that how they were originally released! I only learned widescreen was an option because of a display by the laserdiscs with side by side comparisons of the same shot from Ridley Scott’s Alien. Nowadays that people have widescreen tvs, it’s standard for movies on home media (let’s be clear, streaming) to be widescreen, but back then it wasn’t even a consideration. If you paid attention you probably saw a “this film has been modified to fit the screen” message at the start of the tape, but I didn’t even know what that meant. Laserdisc was a special format where the best versions of movies were often released. Star wars fans still collect the original trilogy on laserdisc because it’s the home release closest to the original theatrical experience (George Lucas even made changes to the VHS before the special edition rereleases.) There are as all handful of films that never received a DVD or Blu Ray home video release, so are only available in higher definition on laserdisc. So fast forward to the present day, when I have completed my transformation into a real movie lovin’ sicko, and I have since learned about how cool laserdisc was as a format. I’m not going to get into collecting them, because I already have enough collections, but if things had turned out differently I would have been. Anyway, an internet friend of mine has announced that de to an upcoming move he will be downsizing his considerable laserdisc collection. He’s mostly getting rid of movies he either has duplicates of, or won’t watch again anytime soon. He’s going to sell most of them, but as he is also a proselytizer of the format, he’s offered to send out a free laserdisc to any of his internet friends who want one. I jumped at the opportunity, if only so I could own a small piece of home media history. He sent me the list of discs he was getting rid of, and the one that jumped out to me was Lawnmower Man. Lawnmower Man is a movie that shares a name with a Stephen King short story, and literally nothing else. The movie is so different, that despite having his name on it originally, King sued to have it removed. Which is extra funny because the version of the movie on laserdisc that was sent to me is from the batch that prominently says “based on a Story by Stephen King” after the lawsuit was settled. So he had to go back and sue again for additional damages after the studio broke the court order removing his name. The movie itself is about a scientist played by Pierce Brosnan using computers to turn his lawnmower man into a genius. It’s full of mediocre CGI and is a horror story about the powers of technology. It’s not a good movie, but it is a movie that sticks in my brain because I saw countless trailers for it on the other VHS tapes I rented at Blockbuster back in the day. If my laserdisc story was to come full circle, this seemed like the best option. So now it sits on my desk. And it’s a good thing working laserdisc players are pretty expensive on the secondhand market because otherwise I’m afraid it would be the start of a much bigger problem (collection) for me. Poorly Organized Thoughts on: Shutting Up I’m a pretty opinionated guy. By which I mean I have lots of opinions. And for the most part, I’m fine with that. I don’t mind having opinions on little things like which movies are good or the right way to cook vegetables. I also have opinions on more important things like fundamental human rights and which Taylor Swift album is the best. And I share these opinions when asked, or when people subscribe to my newsletter. But I also try to remember that opinions are based on the information I have available to me, and that information can be flawed. Which means my opinions can be changed with new information. I’m being a little vague here and that’s on purpose. Earlier this week I wrote one of these on an opinion that I felt pretty sure about. I even outlined it and made bullet points and everything. But the situation was an ongoing one and as I heard more perspectives that challenged my own I started to doubt myself. Here are people who were sharing their lived experiences and while I don’t want to deny those experiences I had trouble understanding how they came to the conclusions they arrived at from those experiences. Now this is a mid-level opinion, and it’s one where as I continue to question if and why my conclusions could be wrong or should be changed. But even on mid level opinions, I think I’m better off just shutting up. This is one of those situations where the best thing for me to do is probably shut up and listen to other people. More often than not in my life when I’ve identified those moments I haven’t regretted listening instead of talking. So I decided not to share my opinion this time. Maybe I’ll do so later, after I continue evaluating the information I have, and maybe I won’t. To be clear this isn’t a topic you probably have an opinion on already. It’s a small fandom squabble happening in a tiny corner of the internet. But it matters to the people discussing it. All I would be doing is bringing more attention to it, which I know because I had to do an explainer of the whole situation at the start of the version of this I deleted. So instead you get this. A wandering, set of paragraphs that say nothing. So I'll say this: When a cop asks you questions: Shut up! Stuff I'm watching: I finally got around to finishing the 4 season CW Nancy Drew tv series. I'll be honest, I mostly completed it out of a sense of obligation. It's not a terrible show by any means, but before watching the show I had no real interest or connection to the characters or premise. I had never read a Nancy Drew book, and to this day I still haven't. I'm sure they're good, but I can't compare this series to them at all, due to my ignorance. What surprised me most about this show when I first started watching it, was that it was very explicitly a show about supernatural events. In this series ghosts and other spooky things like curses and witches are all real. This puts it much more firmly in the realm of a show like Buffy The Vampire Slayer (although not nearly as good) than a show where a young sleuth solves mysteries. By the series finale they're throwing around curses and demons and not-technically-time travel with such abandon that it feels like every problem and solution are just being made up on the fly. Because with poorly defined magic you can just do whatever you want. but fans would say the show is much more about the relationships than it is the specifics of supernatural activities, and I would have to agree there. Somehow this show made me ship a couple for the first time in forever. And because on half of the ship was a ghost, they eventually move on to the afterlife and are never mentioned again. Justice for Bess/Odette. I recently mentioned that I'm trying to watch all the official black and white releases of movies that were originally shot in color. I continued that this week with Parasite, which is already a great film and one of the few times in my lifetime where I agree with the academy's choice for best picture. It may not have been the pest picture of 2019, I haven't seen them all, but it was the best picture nominated for that award. I am real glad I revisited it this week, and I have to say the black and white version is absolutely stunning to watch. I don't know that it's better than the original, after all it's still the same film, but it might be the version I go back to the most often. This week's Crazy Ex-Girlfriend Song of the Week is Settle For Me Here's a picture of a cat
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KD^3C^3 - 20240310 I can’t remember the dream that I had

We’re heading back home today, as the plague seems to have vacated the premises of our actual home. We’re ten days out from initial symptom onset so we trust that it will be safe to return. It has been fun and weird being only a short drive from home, and I’ve had to actually commute to work (at my home office) every day this week, which hasn’t been necessary for almost exactly four years. It was a weird time, but I’m also glad to be going home.  Poorly Organized Thoughts on: Chili I’ve lived in three different regions of the country now for long enough to feel comfortable talking about something important: chili. Chili’s a fascinating topic because people get very protective of their particular variety.  First of all, there’s Texas style chili. Being from Texas originally this is of course the chili I think of when i think of chili. I think due to its seeming simplicity it’s the closest thing to an idealized version of chili. The platonic ideal, if you will.  Side note: did you know that the phrase “platonic ideal” come from the philosophy of Plato? That’s what the name means. To his way of thinking, everything in existence is merely a reflection of the best or most perfect version of that thing. So if you have a chair, you know it is a chair because of how closely it hews to the pure perfect version of a chair that all chairs are shadows of. And as I understand it, these platonic ideal forms weren’t just hypothetical or theorized, but understood to be actual things in what we might call another plane of existence. And it should be further noted that these platonic are different from Platonic solids, which are the 5 regular convex polyhedra. You’re likely familiar with at least the Cube, which is made up of 6 regular (that is to say, identical) squares, but the is also the tetrahedron and octahedron and icosahedron, all made up of regular triangles, the dodecahedron made of pentagons. Although now that I think about it, the Platonic solids are also sort of the platonic ideals of those shapes. Any icosahedron you make in the real world won’t be exact (just ask any D&D player about their favorite d20) so it is merely attempting to be the true icosahedron. And then of course there’s the platonic friendship, which I leave as an exercise for the reader.  Was I talking about chili? Texas chili is my favorite. It’s a hearty meat stew that can hold up to cheese, sour cream, and saltine crackers. But to a lot of people Texas chili is defined by what it lacks, which is beans. Most other chilis use beans. Most commonly red kidney beans in my experience, but other beans are certainly on the metaphorical table. I’ll be one of the few Texans out there who says it’s fine if you want to put beans in your chili. I don’t think it improves anything if the rest of your chili isn’t up to snuff, but you do you.  There are also the non-red chilis that come most commonly in shades of white or green. These are fanciful deviations and experiments that push us further from the platonic ideal of what a chili can be, but in those experiments we get a better understanding of what it means to be a chili. Chicken or pork instead of beef! Fresh chilies (with an e) instead of dried or powdered! I even once made a seafood chili using scallops and shrimp. It turned out well and showed me just how far one can push the boundaries of what a chili (with an I) can be.  Then. There is Cincinnati. Cincinnati style chili is an abomination. They serve it over spaghetti, often with beans, and I’ve heard rumors of ingredients as strange as cinnamon and even cocoa powder. And the worst part? I think it’s pretty tasty! But I still think it crosses the metaphorical threshold into a land beyond chili. One should expect it to count, after all chili is right there in the name. And the general scope of ingredients seems to match: beef, tomatoes, brownish red sauce. You can even serve it on a hotdog with shredded cheddar cheese, for a delightful experience. But I think it doesn’t count as chili for a single reason: you wouldn’t eat it alone. If you walk into one of the 160 Skyline Chili locations across the Midwest (mostly Ohio) you won’t find “bowl of chili” on the menu. The simplest way you can order it is with spaghetti underneath and cheese on top. That is the minimum complete dish. And you need those components to work in harmony with the chili, or it won’t taste right. So for that reason, Cincinnati style chili has to be demoted to sauce. Sorry. Stuff I’m watching The Traitors (US version) season 2 ended this week and it was a killer finale. If you’re unfamiliar, the Traitors is a hidden role game like The Resistance or Werewolf or Mafia where a group of people have to work together towards a common goal while also trying to seek and expose the traitors amongst the players. As far as reality competition shows go, it’s nowhere near as strategic as a survivor or big brother, as it mostly runs on vibes. And the vibes are immaculate. This season’s was entirely reality TV stars and people of similar levels of game (including a former member of British Parliament.) I won’t recap. The whole season or spoil the finale, but it became clear there were two groups of players, one who saw this as the game it was, and one who took everything at face value and played like they just hanging out with friends. The whole thing takes place in a castle in Scotland and Alan Cummings hosts in a series of outrageous outfits. It’s a silly good time, and I recommend the second season in particular as a good intro to these types of tv shows.  I have also watched the first episode of Elsbeth, a show that is technically a spin off of The Good Wife and The Good Fight, but requires absolutely no prior knowledge of those shows. What it is is a reverse mystery show where we the audience see the crime being committed and then follow Elsbeth, who is technically a lawyer but is working alongside the NYPD for reasons, as she figures out who did it and finds a way to solve the mystery. This format was originally pioneered by Columbo, played by Peter Falk and now with Poker Face by Rian Johnson and starting Natasha Lyonne, we now have two of these shows on at the same time. It’s a good time to be a fan of this format (which I am) This Week’s Crazy Ex-Girlfriend Song of the Week is I’m not Sad, You’re Sad Here’s a picture of a cat
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KD^3C^3 - 20240225 Hit on the head with a frying pan

I feel like I should take a vacation. Not from anything in particular, but I’m just feeling a bit restless. Maybe I should just take a walk. A Thing in my Possession: 99 granola bars I bought 99 chewy granola bars for kids from meh.com It was the sort of thing that really makes the website live up to the name. But I thought to myself, well I like granola bars, and this is a lot cheaper than it would have been otherwise to buy them. And they’re not bad! meh could get them and reset them for cheap because they are relatively close to their best by dates, but on shelf stable foods those are more of a suggestion than anything else. They don’t immediately become poison 24 hours after the date. But the funniest thing about buying 99 granola bars is that they came loose in the cardboard box. I mean each one is individually wrapped, but I kind of expected there to be some additional internal packaging. Nope! Just a big jumble of bars in a box. Of course there are fewer than 99 in the box now, because I just eave it next to my desk and when I feel the urge, I reach over and grab one out of the box. Stuff I'm Watching I bought the DVDs of Ninja Turtles: The Next Mutation, which is the only live action Ninja Turtles TV series to exist. This show is not good, and in fact is widely regarded as terrible. I’ve watched the first half dozen episodes, and I don’t want to imply that it is anything approaching good. However, it is less terrible than I was originally led to believe. The crimes against Ninja Turtles it commits begin with the title, which very deliberately removes both Teenage and Mutant from the equation. Like we know that both words are included, but it is a bad decision to not include them, if nothing else because it makes alphabetizing one’s collection difficult. Do you just include them with the other TMNT shows and movies? Or do you drop them in the N section like a rube? I would probably do the former. But beyond the title, the show was clearly made with a budget of thirteen dollars. The turtles themselves look OK until they start talking, at which point I’m forced to ask if they even knew what the lines were going to be while filming, or if the dialogue was written entirely after the fact. The audio is clearly all dubbed in afterwards, but it feels like no effort was put into making the mouth movements match what was being said. The writing is pretty bad. They created a whole new villain for the turtles to fight, they explicitly state the turtles aren’t brothers (seemingly to make it less weird when they perv on the new girl turtle) and they added a girl turtle. Now having a girl turtle in the show isn’t inherently a bad idea. But the way they did it was not great. She has two main character traits, the first is she isn’t a ninja, but rather a shinobi, which to this show means a ninja but with magic, and that she doesn’t speak English well. There’s not an episode I’ve watched that doesn’t include the “joke” where she says a phrase wrong and is corrected by one of the boys. Plus the other turtles don’t use her given (Chinese) name, instead calling her Venus de Milo, who you might notice is an artwork rather than being an artist. I feel like I’m not doing a great job of convincing you this isn’t terrible. But effort was clearly being put into the show, and one thing I think they got pretty well is the characters. These dudes feel like themselves. I’ve watched the H Bomberguy video about the CG animated pseudo anime show RWBY three times now. I have never watched a single episode of RWBY. I’m not gunna rehash the video, because it’s two an a half hours long. But I thin kit’s a fascinating piece of media criticism because he isn’t content to call the show bad, but rather he tries to understand why the show fails to be the best version of itself. I really like this style of criticism, breaking a thing apart to understand how it works, and comparing that to what it is trying to accomplish. Obviously this is a subjective process, as all criticism is, but when it’s done well it helps you understand why someone feels a way about a piece of media and can even grant the audience a deeper understanding of it too. So even though I’ve never seen any of RWBY, the structuralism and format of the analysis is enough to bring me back. on my recent third viewing of the whole thing there was a quote that really stood out to me, which is "at it's core, writing means making decisions and risking making the wrong one.” and wow did that hit close to home for me. In a very literal sense of the word, I’m a writer. I come on here and put out roughly a thousand words every week for you my (very small) audience to consume. I hope you enjoy them but I don’t actually know if you do because I don’t get a lot of feedback. But I write words every single week and so I am a writer. But I feel very comfortable in this format because I can shorten the period between writing and publishing to basically zero. I often type directly into the post creation box, so I don’t have to go back and look at what I wrote more than once. And I don’t look back much either. After a post is published, I move on to the next one. Which means I never have to question if I made the wrong decision because I’m on to making the next one. Once I start thinking about the decisions I’m making I get vapor lock and the words do not come out as well. I have a play I’ve been writing on and off for *checks watch* 3 years. And the more I ave written of it, the slower I’ve gone. I wrote two pages last week, which were the first pages I had written in months. And if I were to hazard a guess I might be about half way done. And it’s because every time I open the document I start second guessing the writing choices I have already made. I’ve changed the (as of yet unwritten) ending three different times, and I have about two and a half different opening scenes because I can’t decide where to start the story. I’ve even thought of taking the coward’s way out and writing all three endings and letting the audience decide which one would be performed on a given night (or do the thing from Clue and show all of them) but I also know that it wouldn’t serve the story to do that. It would be failing to make any decision instead of doing my best to make what I think is the best choice and living with the consequences. (To be clear, I think it actually is the best choice in Clue, because it reflects the source material, and reinforces the inherent silliness in the whole endeavor.) This Week's Crazy Ex-Girlfriend Song of the Week is: What'll it Be Here's a picture of a cat
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KD^3C^3 - 20240218 Then the people came to talk me down

I often get the Day of the Triffids confused with the Nigh of the Lepus. Which I really shouldn't because one has Triffids and one takes place at night. A Thing in my Possession: A Doctor Who Scarf Yes I know his name isn't Doctor Who, but It's called that because it comes from the tv show Doctor Who. Or at least that's how I'm justifying calling it that. Because if I called it a Doctor scarf, or more specifically a Fourth Doctor Scarf, I feel like I'm being more accurate (I've been watching a lot of Um, Actually on dropout), but also feels like it's pushing the person I'm talking with to have to ask more questions in a feat of verbal entrapment. They can ask questions if they want to, but it's kind of mean to be intentionally obtuse just so I can talk more about the topic. And if they're already asking questions about my 18 foot long scarf, I've got them plenty trapped. Of course this is my newsletter, so I can opine on it at any length I find desirable. When I originally opined on length regarding the scarf, it was in the period of time where my sister had recently started knitting and let me know she'd be willing to make one of the iconic scarves worn by Tom Baker when he played the Doctor on Doctor Who. There were three different lengths of scarf he wore over the course of his tenure, and the longest one was roughly 18 feet in length. It was incredibly nice and giving of my sister to agree to make me this scarf and I selfishly took the opportunity to ask for the longest one. We worked together to find the right pattern and screen accurate yarn colors, by which I mean I googled the answers and gave them to her. (remember when google could find things?) Ever since she finished it while I was in college (she probably put hundreds of hours into it,) I have relished the cold days when I was also going outside and it was finally practical to wear this entirely unpractical garment. This is a long winded way of saying it's been cold lately and the scarf is in storage, which means I miss wearing it. Poorly Organized Thoughts on: Camp Songs I miss singing camp songs. When I worked at a scout camp for the majority of my teen years, and even into my early twenties, every time we got together we would sing songs. There are probably two dozen or more camp songs that I have permanently embedded in my brain from that experience. At least once a month we would have a meeting, and at every one we would sing a couple of songs. It was a very important part of the experience, so much so that when the camp actually started, the whole first day when campers were arriving, we the staff would sing song after song after song. Most of the time the campers were not at all prepared for this experience of 20 young men singing nonsense songs without pause, which was part of the fun for us, but also it set the tone for the whole week. We would back off a bit as the days went on, but there was never a time when the whole camp was together that we weren’t likely to break into song. It was wonderful to see these young scouts transform from confused and annoyed by all the singing to joyfully joining in on every song by the end of the week. I still know the words to almost all the songs we use to sing. There's something powerful and comforting about a community who breaks into spontaneously breaks into songs together. Stuff I'm Watching: I was a real Glee-head back in the day. And to be clear it was from the jump. I watched the pilot on TV and then went and bought the episode on iTunes (ITunes was a place you could buy digital media. {Buying is a concept where you pay for something once, the you can use it forever instead of paying for it every month [it turns out forever is actually a bit misleading when it comes to digital media, but I didn’t know that at the time]}). I watched it probably three or four times on my computer and on my iPod video before the second episode had even aired. It was a great pilot. Maybe one of the best pilot episodes of all time. And the rest of the first season was pretty good too! I don’t know if it ever quite reached the Heights if that first episode, but it got close. The show was a huge hit even half way through the first season. I remember seeing a DVD for sale of Season 1: Volume 1 in the Sam’s Club DVD section even before the first season ended. I thought that was a little weird, even if the first 13 episodes did tell a fairly complete story. Which makes sense, because the network originally only ordered 13 episodes, and didn’t pick it up for the back nine until it was deemed a hit. I hesitated to buy half a season of a show that I liked this much, because it seemed like a  money grab by the studio to make me buy the show twice. And even as much as i liked those first 13 episodes, I wasn’t even sure if I would like the rest of the first season, seeing as it hadn’t aired yet. I was torn between getting something I liked and waiting to see if it got even better. Someone told me I could always buy it later, when I better appreciated the rest of the series. So I held off on buying it then. The the rest of the series happened. I watched it for longer than it deserved, making all the way into the fourth season, after half the cast graduated high school and the writers had to find a way to keep them in the show even as they went off to do other things. I came back briefly for the start of the sixth season only to bail after two episodes because of how bad it was. I never got around to taking that friend’s advice and buying the first season (or even volume one.) I would see it in stores occasionally but it never seemed the right time. Until this week when I found The Complete First Season DVD in the library books sale for one dollar (Bob.) finally the price was right. For the same amount I originally paid for the pilot on iTunes I could now have the whole season. I threw on the first episode again, and I'm hapy to inform you, it is still pretty good. This Week's Crazy Ex-Girlfriend Song of the Week is: No One Else is Singing My Song Here's a picture of a cat
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KD^3C^3 - 20240211 Found the sword and walked among the trees

Once there was a dutch man, his name was Johnny Verbeck. He mad the finest sausages and sauerkraut and spek. He made the finest sausages, the world had ever seen. And one day he invented a sausage making machine. A Thing in my Possession: Pocket Games I wrote last week about how I don't play a lot of board games with people in person any more, but I also realized that I don't let that stop me from wanting to. I went to see a play with some friends here in person, and even thought the afternoon's activity was already planned, there was the possibility we might go out for coffee or dinner afterwards. So I slipped a couple games into my pockets. In this case it was Pairs and Love Letter. Two simple games that pack a lot of fun into small packages. Tiny games are maybe my favorite sub-niche in the hobby. I love the idea of having something that would become part of your everyday carry that includes a the possibility for fun. Sure some folks carry a pocket knife, or a stack of 3x5 notecards held together with a binder clip, but I carry a game or two when I go out (which is rare.) 90% of the time I don't end up puling them out, but I like the comfort of the possibility. And when I have pulled them out it's been worth the initial awkwardness, because we've had fun that the others I was with didn't expect to have. I think more people should carry games in their pocket for when boring things happen. I have plenty to recommend! Poorly Organized Thoughts about: Search Engines I don’t really do new years resolutions. But I kind of fell backwards into one a few weeks ago. I was thinking about how bad search engines have gotten lately. I generally haven’t used google for a few years, because their company motto some time ago stopped being “don’t be evil” and started being “don’t? Be evil!” between the tracking and advertising and I’m still mad about them shutting down google reader. My primary search engine has been Duck Duck Go, which doesn’t track users (yay!) But I have also noticed how bad search results have gotten over the years. More often than not when I search for something specific on any given search engine, I get garbage instead of anything useful. Every blogpost I find there feels full of filler trying to masquerade as content specifically designed to juice whatever search algorithm is being used to serve up these pages that mostly exist for advertiser dollars. I think it started with the glorification of recipes. You know that thing where you have to scroll past a 2 thousand word story just to find out what ingredients you need to make a cake? I don’t think that happened on accident. I think for whatever reason those pages did well in search (possibly because they appeared to be made by actual people?) and then the feedback loop started. You have to write pages like that so that they show highly on search engines, but then why bother actually writing anything real on them, just churn out some spicy autocomplete garbage and slap a generated recipe on the end too. I don’t think this was inherently malicious on anybody part, but instead the result of competing automations and prioritizing page rank over actual usability. Why do you need a good page rank? So people will see the ads next to your content and you will make a few cents. I started noticing that whatever page I ended up on felt like it was specifically designed to look like a human made it, but without any of the touches of an actual human behind the keyboard. I don’t think I could put into words specifically, but then someone else went and did it for me. This article on the Verge goes into great detail in helping me understand what happened to search, and in particular how it has made all websites feel the same. Once you start seeing it, it’s everywhere. Like seeing the code in the matrix. So I quite using search engines. I’m not the first person to try doing this, which I know because I got the idea from the internet’s resident Linux Mom Veronica Explains. She hasn’t yet posted a video about the experience, but she has posted a bit about it on her mastodon account, where I follow her. I thought it was a cool thing to try and so for the last month or so I have done everything I can to avoid any search engine. And honestly? It’s been pretty good. nine times out of ten I can just go to wikipedia for a quick piece of information on a topic, and if I need to go further I can always check the sources there. I even updated my browser’s default search to start there instead of DDG to break myself of the habit. I hadn’t realized how insidious having a search engine in also in the address bar really was for changing my behaviors. It really made DDG (or google or whatever) the default behavior for interacting with the web, and ultimately that gave them more power over my browsing than I would have if I thought about before now. The other thing that I’ve rediscovered in this practice is the ability to flex my own research muscles. I have to ask myself where a given piece of information might exist, rather than offloading the work to a computer. When wikipedia doesn’t suffice, I have to think about where the information might exist. Often I’ll start by trying to remember websites I have visited before, which works pretty well, but I’ve also just guessed at websites and gotten where I need to go. I complain about the death of websites, but a lot of companies still have them, with at least basic support information. website’s built in search functions are often better than you might expect, and help limit the results to what’s actually in the site. Youtube is still a useful resource, and I’ve gone back to using reddit more, just because too much of what is there has actually been written by a person. Reddit has’t been the most useful, so usually it’s a place of last resort. I’ve also started using bookmarks again! You know those things where you save a website to come back to it later? They’re great and I’m kind of mad at myself for not using them more. I used to have dozens of websites bookmarked, and now I have maybe 6. Which is more than I had when I started this process. But I’ll probably have more soon. Here are some of the things I have found without a search engine: A liquid soap recipe My doctors office The solution to a weird problem I was having with an obscure piece of software (thanks forums!) That above article about how google changed websites (I hadn’t saved the link) song lyrics for Fast Car by Tracy Chapman And those are just the things I can remember while writing this. It’s been a fun experiment, and the longer I go without using search engines, the more I realize I don’t really need them for most things. Stuff I'm Reading: I dove back into Joker Moon, the 29th book in the Wild Cards series. Wild Cards is a fun series, set in a world where in the 1950s an alien virus swept across the globe. It killed a lot of people let some completely unharmed, and for an even smaller population it mutated them beyond humanity. Almost nobody who mutates does so in the same way, which led to naming the virus the Wild Card. And when your card turns, you could end up as a relatively normal looking person who can lift very heavy objects with no effort, or fly, or turn your body into a swarm of insects(an Ace), or you might wind up as a giant mutant snail or some other hideous thing(a Joker). With 30 plus books in the series, there's a lot to explore, but most of them are standalone and can be read in any order. Most of them are also what they call Mosaic Novels, where a handfull of different authors tell stories from different characters' POV over the course of the book. Soone character will have 1-6 different chapters in the book about them, written by one author, and a different character will tell their character's part of the story in other chapters. Joker Moon, the one I'm currently reading has nine different authors telling the story of a young man with too much money who decides to build a refuge for all Jokers, where they can get away from their harsh treatment on earth. By moving to the Moon. I generally enjoy the Wild Card books I've read so far and this one is turning out to be quite good. I actually picked up two more at the library this week so I"m ready to jump back in once I finish this one. This Week's Crazy Ex-Girlfriend Song of the Week is Danny's Turn (Live) Here's a picture of a cat
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KD^3C^3 - 20240204 No fussin' and complainin' anymore

Did the groundhog see a shadow? I don't know, and I didn't check. What is the average lifespan of a groundhog? What does Puxatawny do when Phil dies? Is there a backup groundhog waiting in the wings? Or do they have to go on a hunt for one like they do with the Dalai Lama? It's probably better if we don't know. A Thing In My Possession: A big aluminum measuring cup I think the silliest thing I got for Christmas was a 1 qt measuring metal measuring cup. It's made of aluminum and looks like it belongs in a commercial kitchen or bakery for the purpose of measuring bulk dry goods. But I don't use it for that purpose. I suppose I could, but I mostly drink water out of it, often with a squirt from one of those flavor boosters that have been around for years, but got popular on tiktok when someone called them "water hacking." I put it on my amazon wishlist not because it seemed like a particularly useful drinking vessel, or because i needed to measure things in quarts. I put it there, because it's a screen accurate version of the mugs that Klingons drink bloodwine from. It shows up in a few episodes across The Next Generation and Deep Space Nine. It isn't immediately obvious that they're using measuring cups for mugs, because theu just look like large metal mugs. but someone on the internet noticed and I have loved that fact ever since. It's clear someone in a props department needed to find something they could use that looked appropriately klingon-like, and a large metal mug with flared lips has the appropriate brutalist flair. I've been using it for over a month now and it's great. It has a wide base, and holds enough water that I don't feel the need to go refill it all the time. Plus it lets me secretly pretend I'm a Klingon in boring zoom calls. Poorly Organized Thoughts on: Shut Up and Sit Down Huh. Shut Up and Sit Down is ending. Well that’s not technically true. But it feels true. Shut up and Sit Down is a youtube channel and podcast and website that reviews and discusses board games, card games, and similar things. It started a bajillion years ago in some fake year called two thousand and eleven? that can’t be right. I discovered them through another defunct website Penny Arcade TV. Penny Arcade is a webcomic that has been around for probably twice as many internet eons as SU&SD, and they have dabbled in lots of different things. They tried to make a gaming news website, and they tried to make a gaming video site. Both of those failed in different ways, but one of the web-shows they hosted on their eventually defunct video site was Shut Up and Sit Down. I discovered the game review show there, particularly with the video where they reviewed six games in about fifteen minutes. It was a new thing, and they introduced it as a new segment called Rapid Reviews. I’m pretty sure they never used that segment name again. But I was hooked by these wily boys and their board games. I had only recently gotten into the hobby with any particular zeal (mostly off another ended game show, TableTop with Wil Wheaton). But these guys were looser around the edges, not polished, filming in their living rooms. It felt like friends telling me about the games they liked and why they were cool. About five years ago one of the two dudes, Paul, had left the channel. It wasn’t a huge surprise, after he had moved to Canada a couple years prior and was focusing on his own writing. It was a big change, but one the site weathered.  They had brought on some additional on screen talent, and by that point it really felt like a 3 person show anyway. And in the time since, they had hired even more people to be contributors. More voices in the game review community was a good thing, and the videos changed to match the style of the new contributors. Quinns, the other remaining original host felt like he was doing a lot less month to month, after all, he had a second job doing absolutely amazing reporting work on non-board games for the website People Make Games (seriously, check it out.) So I can’t say I’m too surprised by this change, but I can say I am a little sad about it. The videos will still exist, and I can go back to them whenever I need to find info on new (or old) games I want to try. If I’ve ever recommended a board game to someone, it was in the hope that I could spread some of the enthusiasm for the hobby I felt coming through the screen from their videos. One of my favorite things to do when I was at PAX South (RIP) was wander through the tabletop freeplay area and find a game they had recommended so I could play it with my friends. That’s the other side of the coin then. I’m not the same person I was when I discovered their game videos. I don’t play bored games nearly as often as I once did. It started with the pandemic, where all my gaming had to be don remotely, but by the time in-person events with friends had become safer, my closest friend group had migrated to different parts of the country (including my move to The Woods.) We still get together and play games every Sunday night, but if we want to play a board game, we have to do it through a piece of software to simulate the experience. And by that point, why not play a video game (which we often do?) I have friends I see in person, but they tend to be the ‘sit around and drink wine’ sorts, while I’m bringing more of a babadook vibe with my board games. And I don’t honestly know if I’ll ever go to a real board game convention again (because of viruses. Con crud was a real problem even before COVID.) It isn’t like I’m done with board games, any more than Quinns is officially leaving Shut up and Sit Down (he’s moving into a “contributor” role) I still have lots of games that I’d love to get to the table again, and I can’t shake the idea of hosting a mini-con of just people I know here in town to play games with my friends again, but my priorities have clearly shifted a bit. This is as good a time as any to remember that we are always changing as people and that it’s ok we aren’t the same people we were before. Stuff I'm not yet watching For by birthday I bought myself a bunch of movies. I've been fascinated by the niche category of color movies that have an official black and white release. I first heard about this particular phenomenon when it was announced that a black and white version of The Mist, based on a Stephen King novella was getting released. This seemed silly and kind of weird, but it's what the writer/director Frank Darabont had apparently always wanted, but had been kept from doing by the studio. But if you sell it as a DVD special feature it's a pretty cool idea (this was 2008, when people cared about DVD special features.) Since I first hears about The Mist, my ears would prick up any time I heard another director was looking to do that with his film. It's the sort of thing that feels kind of silly, but also shows how changing the color gamut on a film produces a different viewing experience. This is something I discovered as a relatively young child. I grew up with tv that was predominantly in color, but there were enough black and white shows I could access (thanks nick at night!) that i knew it was a possibility. Mostly I knew it signaled that a movie or TV show was old. But I was also a kid who liked to play with the settings on my TV. More than a few times I would ignore whatever show was actually on TV, instead spending time playing with the display settings. I could increase the green, red, or blue levels, driving them up or down and make the picture change before my eyes. I could dial up r down the contrast and sharpness to change whatever I happened to be watching into an alien looking broadcast. Or, I could dial down all the colors, and dial up the contrast and make any tv show look like it was old, which is to say black and white. So when I hear about directors re-releasing their movies in black and white, I can't help be reminded of afternoons in front of the TV playing with the remote to see what I could make the picture do. I've been trying to keep track of all the movies that get this treatment, but I wasn't sure anybody else was noticing the trend or not. So I was surprise3d and delighted to see this article about Godzilla Minus One's recent limited release without color.  It pointed out this mini-trend that has been going on for a while. IT listed some I knew about, like Logan Noir, and Fury Road Black and Chrome, and even Zach Snyder's Justice is Gray edition of Zach Snyder's Justice League (which I actually watched instead of the color version)  The article also pointed out a few I didn't know about like Peter Bogdanovich's Texasville, or Guillermo del Toro's Nightmare Alley. But not all black and white versions are made the same. The better versions of these films are shot in a way that makes the lack of color work as if it was never in color to begin with, rather than just dialing down the saturation and calling it a day. Every shot needs to be re-graded in order to really make it sing. back when black and white film was actually being used, there was a lot of work put into how specific colors would impact the film, and a lot of work put into coloring everything to create a particular look in the final product. Working from a color version and re-coloring it to black and white is not guaranteed to actually make for an interesting picture. So did any of these movies accomplish that? I don't know because I haven't seen most of them! Back to my birthday. I decided I'd track down as many of these "official" black and white versions I could find. Some of them were easier than others. I managed to get Logan, The Mist, Fury Road, and Johnny Mnemonic (of all films?) on blu ray, and while I haven't bought them yet, Parasite and Texasville are both available from the criterion collection, so I'll pick them up in a future sale. And there are still 5 official versions that are unavailable as far as I can tell. Godzilla Minus One just came out last year, so it hasn't even hit physical media yet, Nightmare Alley and Justice League have official versions in b&w, but no physical releases as far as I can tell, and the last two Mother by Bong Joon-Ho and Lady Vengeance by Park Chan-Wook might have had official releases, but if they did it was in Korea, where both movies hail from, and I've had no luck tracking them down. At least some of these were re-graded with the director and cinematographer supervising and approving the work, so I hope to find them one day officially. But until then I've got some more movies to watch.  This Week's Crazy Ex-Girlfriend Song of the Week is Sexy French Depression Here's a Picture of a cat
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KD^3C^3 - 20240128 I'm right below the horizon

My birthday was this week, so as my gift to you, here's a song about a bucket of beans. Poorly Organized Thoughts on: The Hugo Awards I almost wrote about this in last week's newsletter, but I held off because the situation was still developing and I hoped there would be a resolution soon. That does not appear to be the case. As I was writing about how the Emmys are silly because of their categorization shenanigans, at roughly the same time the 2023 Hugo Award voting results were released.  But first, context! The Hugos are an award for science fiction anf fantasy media given out annually at the World Science Fiction Convention, AKA WorldCon. But WorldCon isn't a singular event, instead different, smaller conventions bid to be the worldcon in a given year. Usually the locations are selected a few years in advance through a process that is complicated and not super important to what is going on right now. Except in that the Worldcon for 2023 was in Chengdu, China. Some people weren't happy about this choice, but I was mostly fine with it. I think a worldcon should actually happen in different places across the world and China seemed like a fine place for one year's convention. Because each worldcon is technically a whole new event, run by new people, there is also a set of rules governing how the Hugo Award process is handled. For this story you need to know 3 things.  1. Any member of the worldcon (even non-attending members) can nominate works for the award and vote for the winner.  2. The nomination and final voting process is designed to be easy for people to vote & nominate, but there's some semi complex math that happens in the back end to determine the winner.  3. Because of item 2, there is a requirement for the Hugo administrators to share the results of the semi-complicated math process to the public.  Item 1 was taken advantage of for a few years by a small people coordinating their votes to overwhelm the previous calculation system in order to push certain ideological nominees to the final ballot. This was distasteful to some, but within the rules. It did lead to further refining the math in item 2 so that it would take a much larger act of coordination to force an entire slate of nominees to the final ballot. There were lots of arguments about this, but they're not too important right now. The final version of the math made it so that a small group of people coordinating could maybe get one or two items to the final ballot, but it would take a much larger coordination to take it over completely. This was considered a fair balance, because if a large enough group wanted to nominate all the same works then why shouldn't that be allowed? If the majority nominates something it should probably be a finalist. The rules were tweaked to avoid minority rule. I've never attended a worldcon, but for the past 10 or so years I've bought a non-attending membership so I could nominate and vote. I say that to make it clear I've been doing this for a while. I don't always like who wins, because that's how awards work, but I do generally trust the system, and how it works, to pick a winner that most of the voting populace will be happy with. And that's the point of voting after all, isn't it? So the 2023 worldcon took place in Chengdu China, and the Chengdu Hugo administration team was a combination of english speaking and Chinese speaking individuals. And it would be generous of me to say they were unprepared for the task. This is particularly surprising since the chair of the admin team has actually done the job multiple times in the past at other worldcons. But for Chengdu, things were messy. The mistakes started fairly early, with unclear nomination timelines, processes that were confusing and even the initial ballot of finalists having a mistake on it. Most of these were either corrected once they were pointed out, or chalked up (by me) as weirdness due to needing to make the whole process bilingual slowing things down overall. But I still was able to nominate, and vote on the final awards. The actual worldcon came and went and the hugo awards were given out. It was a messy process, but a successful one overall. Except. Traditionally the hugo stats are released soon after the awards are given out, so people can see how the winners were determined, who was on the long list of nominees, and because (surprise surprise) there are a lot of stats nerds in this particular fandom community. But the hugo admin team announced that the final stats wouldn't be available immediately. In fact they wouldn't be ready for a while. A while turned out to be three months later. The actual numbers came out a week or so ago (at the time of writing) and they looked weird. Weird is the best way I can describe them. There are people out there doing actual statistical analysis on the numbers and process, and I'll link to some of those at the end, but the best way I can describe it is that it looked weird. According to the documents, there were more votes counted than submitted, the vote spread doesn't align with historical voting patterns, and possibly most important, there were straight up errors and omissions. One nominee was listed twice in the rolls, and other nominees were deemed "not eligible" with either no reason or contradictory reasons given. What makes the whole thing look the weirdest to me is that it doesn't look like a conspiracy, or someone putting their thumbs on the scale. It's not organized enough for that. There are errors that seem to be at cross purposes with each other, where if one was to say "Ah, the shadowy figures are trying to make a certain result happen" I could point to a different error that shows an entirely different and opposite goal. I'm being intentionally a little vague here, because I don't want to mis-repeat someone else's opinion and also because I see a lot of anti-China sentiment being thrown around in the comments, which I do not wish to replicate. (I'm not trying to defend the Chinese government either, *cough*Uyghurs*cough* I just don't like how quickly people jump to what feels like rather sinophobic explanations) The one Hugo Administrator who has publicly commented on this situation has stridently and repeatedly refused to give any answers and has done so in a way that makes him look like a huge asshole. The explanation I've seen that resounds the most with me, is that this is actually not a conspiracy where someone is pulling strings to achieve some master outcome, but rather a farcical series of mistakes that keep compounding as each fudging "correction" to hide one mistake actually introduces three more. A quote from one of my favorite movies comes to mind: "There is no conspiracy. Nobody is in charge. It, it's a headless blunder operating under the illusion of a master plan." A real conspiracy could have done a much better job of doctoring the statistics so that nobody would have noticed. What I know is this: The 2023 awards are over, and I don't see any way to fix them. I have lost a lot of trust in this system however, and I don't know what that means for my participation unless they make some significant changes. As everyone's favorite TV parents say, I'm nos so much mad as I am disappointed. Some Sources: https://www.thehugoawards.org/wp-content/uploads/2024/01/2023-Hugo-Award-Stats-Final.pdf https://file770.com/chengdu-hugo-administrator-dave-mccarty-fields-questions-on-facebook/ https://camestrosfelapton.wordpress.com/2024/01/24/im-coming-around-to-the-unified-stuff-up-theory/ https://camestrosfelapton.wordpress.com/2024/01/22/hugo-stats-where-are-we-today/ Stuff I'm Reading Usually when I talk about stuff I'm reading, it's books, but here's some online stuff I've read recently. Ur-Fascism by Umberto Eco - I mostly read this while looking for a source about how the enemies of fascism have to be depicted as simultaneously incredibly strong and pathetically weak. This is where the original thought comes from The Crab Bucket Fallacy - This is a very long (174 pages!) forum thread that I gdid not read in it's entirety. I was looking for general advice for running skill challenges (or something equivalent) in 5th edition Dungeons and Dragons, but I got sucked into this thread for longer than I should have. The core premise is dealing with the mathematical differences between martial and arcane classes in D&D, but of course which is something I really don't care about but a certain category of D&D players really do. It was a good reminder for why I don't read Character Optimization forums any more. Debunking AGI inevitability claims - This is a blog post by the authors of a preprint paper (linked in the post) looking at the mathematics behind proposed artificial general intelligence (the "human-like/level" AI you might have heard people worrying about.) The paper presents an ideal version of a computer that mat the criteria and then explains why mathematically it's computationally intractable. What this basically means is that an AGI computer would take more resources and time than the likely heat death of the universe. This week's Crazy Ex-Girlfriend Song of the Week is Ping Pong Girl Here's a picture of a cat
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KD^3C^3 - 20240121 To swing concordant angles

There's a Mitch Hedberg joke I'm going to butcher that goes something like: I'm a comedian, my job is to come up with jokes and write them down. Unless the paper and pencil are across the room, in which case, I have to convince myself that what I thought of just ain't funny. I sometimes feel like I have the opposite problem. I come up with things I want to write about and I have to write down at least the topic immediately or I will forget it forever. Sometimes that's not even fast enough as my brain is so distractible that I lose the idea in the gap between thinking of something and opening the notes app on my phone.  It's the digital equivalent of walking into a room and immediately forgetting what I came in here for. Anyway here's some of the things I remembered long enough to write down this week. A Thing in My Possession: A Pencil Object permanence is the mental process by which our brain remembers that things exist once we cannot see them anymore. It's a skill developed in the early stages of life for us humans. And people with ADHD will sometimes joke that we have no obje4ct permanence. (Side note: My spell check recommended I change ADHD to ADD. ADD is considered a depreciated term, get it together spell check!) People with ADHD don't actually have object permanence issues, because we know things exist outside our perception, but we do have a very similar Out of Sight, Out of Mind issue. Once something is out of our immediate perception range it gets de-prioritized to the point of non-existence. I dropped the pen I use for writing in my journal a couple days ago and I cannot find it. It has to be in my office, because I know that's where I was when I dropped it. But It's gone forever now. Instead I picked up a nearby pencil and started using it instead. I don't like it as much, but since it's the thing in view when In need to write something down, it's the thing I use. I'm kinda hoping that by writing this down I'll put in the effort to find the pen later. Who knows. Poorly Organized Thoughts About: Awards The emmys happened last week. I do keep up with the winners, not so much because I put any stock in the awards themselves (after all, most major awards are bought) but because I think it is an interesting reflection of where a giooven industry is at the moment. CODA won Best picture not because it was the best picture (necessarily) but because Apple really wanted to legitimize its streaming platform and so spent the most campaigning for what, by all accounts, was a pretty good but not overwhelming family drama. With the emmys what I was really looking at was how one of my absolute favorites shows of the recent past did. The Bear. The Bear is an occasionally 30 minute long tvs how about a group of people running a small restaurant in Chicago. But to limit the show to that description is like saying ted Lasso is about a guy who coaches football in England. The Bear is an amazing show that is not like much else on TV. I don't want to say too much about it other than to make clear that it is not a comedy in any real tradition of the term. Some bits are funny, but mostly it's a dramatic exploration of grief and stress. The comedy/drama divide in various awards never really made much sense. The place where it made the most sense, however was TV. Because TV shows used to fit into neat little buckets based on how long they were. At some point all 30 minute long shows were comedies and all 60 minute long shows were dramas. But handing out awards based on how long your TV show is seems silly. So instead we used a proxy for that, by calling them comedies and dramas. Forr time 30 minute shows were (almost) exclusively multi-camera sitcoms, which have different production and acting requirements than something like a police procedural would. But that distinction has blurred and diminished over the years to the point of being meaningless. I could hold up an episode of The Bear (this year's best comedy) next to an episode of Succession (this year's winner for best drama) and you would see more stylistic similarities than differences. Both seasons this year even featured extended single-take, continuously filmed scenes at different points in the season. I know the shows often submit themselves in their chosen categories, and that a show will select the category they think they have the better chance of winning. But there are eligibility requirements too. Survivor can't submit for best musical at the Golden Globes (probably.) Except genre isn't a criteria any more. They changed that a couple years ago, so The Bear is a comedy because they say it is. In the end it doesn't really matter, and I think you should watch The Bear (and Succession) and it's nice that it gives me something to write about every year around this time. Stuff I'm Watching I've started watching Out 1, a 1971 French film directed by Jacques Rivette and Suzanne Schiffman. Out 1 is especially notable for its extensive runtime. At nearly 13 hours long, it's a big boy of a movie. I've ranted here a few times when talking about television shows that call themselves 10-hour movies. And I often follow this up with the complaint that most people don't want to watch a 10-hour movie. That mostly holds true here too. The directors even went so far as to divide the movie into 8 parts that are closer to normal movie length (1.5-2 hours.) I'm treating the whole thing like a TV season, watching each part like an episode. So far I've only watched the first part, which mostly consists of footage of two different theatre troupes rehearsing for productions of a pair of ancient greek plays. But it's not just the actors reading their lines, instead they're doing the sort of weird theater exercises that you would expect to see in a french theater in the 70s. I know there's probaly more plot coming in future parts, but that's not here yet. But for watching people writhe and make non-word sounfs for an unbroken 45 minutes, it's not bad. I'll probably circle back when I've got a couple more under my belt. I'm also almost completely finished with watching Titans, a show set in the DC universe following Robin, Raven, Starfire, Beast Boy and other members of the superhero team known in the comics as the Teen Titans. The show started on the streaming service called DC Universe before that shut down and it moved to what was then called HBO Max. It's an uneven show at best, where the first season was ok, the second was not bad at all, the third was a slog and the fourth is just ugh. Why am I still watching it? I don't know, but I've only got two episodes left, so I'm gunna power through. I don't really recommend it. This week's Crazy Ex-Girlfriend Song of the Week is I don't care about Award Shows (Not technically from CXG, but by the same creative team, and about the show) Here's a picture of a cat
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KD^3C^3 - 20240114 A place where we could live

It's real cold out there folks, stay safe. A Thing in my Possession: An extremely needy cat I'm trying to finish this newsletter for you this morning, but it hasn't been easy. At around 3 AM my at woke up me up for breakfast. this in not particularly unusual for her, as she has a tendency to do this to me. Most days I can get up, feed her and get back to sleep with minimal disruption. But this particular morning it wasn't enough. From about 4-6:30 she insisted that I pay attention to her. She alternated between meowing loudly as she wandered around to jumping on my bed and clawing various parts of my body. I can't tell that she actually wanted anything other than attention and I was trying too hard to stay asleep to give it to her. And now that I've gotten up she is standing (not sitting or relaxing) on my lap and repeatedly shoving her head under my hands as I type. This has become a new favorite pastime of hers, as she has discovered that it almost feels like getting petted, and results in further attention. I will say as a side effect it has made me slow down while typing and I have caught more errors than I would usually have. Maybe she's just trying to help. Poorly Organized Thoughts On: Video Media Formats Our Flag Means Death got cancelled after 2 seasons. It was a good show! I liked watching it, it was funny, heart wrenching and surprising in equal parts. I've seen people upset about how they don't get to spend more time with their favorite gay pirates (also the show is very gay(superlative.)) But I have also seen the take that this is why TV is never going to be as good as film, because the creators don't know how long they are going to have to tell the story. Sometimes shows get cancelled before they're done telling a story and sometimes they have to keep going because the show gets renewed beyond the original intended lengths of story the creators wanted to tell. With a movie, this argument goes, the creators got to tell a complete story and then it's done. There's no chance of a movie getting cancelled in the middle (although Monty Python and the Holy grail makes a joke about this exact thing happening.) But I reject this argument because the core unit of film as a medium isn't the same thing as the core unit of television as a medium. In film, it's the film. This isn't a shocking or controversial opinion I hope. But the core unit of Television is not the series, or even the season, but rather the episode. The great TV series in the history of the medium all understood this. Sure you have your strictly episodic greats like The Simpsons or M*A*S*H but even your best serialized TV Shows know that the episode is the building block of those great series. All you have to do is look to the Sopranos or Breaking Bad or even the recently finished Succession to see that. Each episode of these shows is, while part of a larger story, a complete unit. Next time you watch a TV show, ask yourself if what you just saw was an episode or just a chunk of story that started and ended at arbitrary points in time? This is an extension of Ten-Hour-Movie-itis, where the people who are making the show don't understand how the medium they're working in works. I would argue that most of the mediocre shows out there are better than a lot of so-called 'prestige' TV if they know how to use an episode well. Television, by using the episode, also gets to grow and change over time in a way that a movie cannot. If a movie works, it works, but once it's done there's no going back. A TV show can course correct from early mistakes and even make past decisions retroactively better. They can also make progressively worse mistakes too, but we're talking about the peak potential rather than the worst case scenario. If a show goes beyond the originally intended lifespan, it can even improve beyond what was expected. Sarah Z made a compelling video not too long ago about how Buffy the Vampire Slayer season 6 is good actually, and it is in part because the main story lines had wrapped up in season 5, so now they had to figure out what to do next, and then they did it in a way that grew and changed the show while still remaining true to it's core principles. I think the binge release model has really hidden the importance of episodes in recent years. When a show is released and watched in a very short period of time, the distinction of the episode becomes blurry. it becomes easier to overlook the faults in the structure if you are drinking from the firehose of content instead of letting it sit and marinate between episodes. Even miniseries, a format that hasn't seen a lot of success recently, historically released one episode a night. Roots is the typical example, a miniseries that took a popular novel and turned it into a ground breaking miniseries with one episode released per day over a week. I typically don't watch shows that get dropped all at once all at once. I usually space them out to at most one or two a week. But even then I find myself less attracted to the binge released shows because they tend to be muddy and unfocused and full of filler trying to meet the time limit they've assigned to themselves. One last complaint: I occasionally see people say "I won't try new shows until they're over" because what if they get cancelled," and that just makes me sad. A good show can be good from episode one, and the best shows are made from episodes that work. Stuff I'm playing: I bought a bundle of 6 Yakuza games from GOG a couple weeks ago and I installed Yakuza 0, the prequel to the main series, but apparently a good jumping on point. I didn't really know what to expect, other than the games are quite popular. What they turn out to be is actually three types of games in one. The first game is a pretty fun action brawler where you fight large groups of mooks with just your fists and any random objects you can find lying around. The second game is not a game at all actually, but a series of surprisingly long cutscenes telling a melodramatic crime story of betrayal with twists and turns aplenty. The third and final game is actually a series of minigames where you can do all sorts of stuff like playing claw machines to win prizes, sing kareoke, play darts and even play other video games inside this one. I don't know if the three different games inside this one game of Yakuza 0 are all great, but the wild swings in tone between each one is surprisingly fun. Sure I've got to go fight a crime boss and monologue dramatically about it afterwards, but first I need to win the best toy in this claw machine. This week's Crazy Ex-Girlfriend Song of the week is Cold Showers lead to Drugs Here's a picture of a cat
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KD^3C^3 - 20240107 Made of bones and wood so ancient

I'd like to say sorry for missing a post last week, but I'm not quite sorry enough to just do it. So instead you get this half apology from the space in between. The reason I didn't post last week is because I was traveling. I wen back home to visit my family. For a variety of reasons we do our Christmas celebrations in the first week of the year instead of the actual week of Christmas. This allows up to be more low key about the whole thing, which I really appreciate. The flight itself was not particularly interesting, and just barely tolerable. Flying on a airplane is one of those things that should be magical, but instead has had all the fun squeezed out of it through things like unnecessary security theater, price gouging, and the still ongoing pandemic. No matter what is going on in your life outside of the airport, everything becomes a little worse once you are inside of one. While in my hometown, I did take the opportunity to visit a MeowWolf exhibition. If you're not familiar, MeowWolf is an art collective that focuses on interactive and inhabitable spaces where the art is part of a larger world they are crafting. They're also incredibly instagram friendly, which would be cooler if I hadn't mostly stopped using the 'gram sometime in the middle of last year. But it was still a cool experience, and unlike anything else I've been to. Part of the fun is the fact that any given doorway can (and usually is) a portal to somewhere else. You can move from a living room to a nexus of refrigerators, to an alien back-alley, to a trailer in the desert, to a room that contains a slimy rainbow waterfall frozen in time. The place is frankly overwhelming, because around every corner is something new and different. Or more likely fifteen new and different things. I could tell that a lot of work had gone into crafting this experience, so I was also a little disappointed in how there was an unintentional pressure to experience everything quickly then move on to something else. Part of this is the design of the space, where discovery is part of the top billing, but also because it was crowded inside. Many of the art pieces were interactive, but not meant to be interacted with by more than one person at a time. So if you spend very much time at all interacting with and experiencing a particular artwork there's likely to be other people waiting to do the same. I spent two hours wandering through the place and I was never alone (or with just my group) for more than a minute or two at a time. It felt like I was experiencing a weird novel on fast forward. And there was clearly a lot of work put into everything, and things that were meant to be experienced for more than 30 seconds at a time. I found a journal in someone's bedroom that was easily 50 pages of written material. It would take a significant chunk of time for me to sit down and read it on the owner's bed. And I tried to do that, but every page I turned was met by someone else entering the bedroom to look around. I felt like I was taking away from the other patrons' experience every extra moment that I took with even this one corner of the experience. The whole thing was clearly a labor of love for the artists involved in making it, and I'm so happy I got to spend time there. But by the very nature of the exhibition it felt like the work itself was being undercut. In addition, by being an "Immersive" experience all the credit was unavailable inside the exhibit itself. There was an interactive information kiosk on the outside, but I felt a little bad for the hundreds of artists who didn't get recognition for their work inside the work itself. And how many people attending actually take the time to read everything in the kiosk? I only looked at it for a few minutes to pull up a few pieces. I could have easily spent at least half as long again looking at the information as I did looking at the art. If anything it reminded me of the culture of the internet where things get reposted and shared without attribution, or "credit to the artist" instead of actually looking for who created the thing being shared in the first place. It might seem like I didn't enjoy myself based on what I have written above, so I do want to make it clear I had fun and I am glad I went. I might even go to one of the other exhibitions they have across the US if given the opportunity. But If I go back I'll certainly need to plan how I want to experience it more. We'll get back to a more traditional format next week. Probably. But here's this week's Crazy Ex Girlfriend Song of the Week: Textmergency Here's a picture of a cat
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KD^3C^3 - 20231224 Pressed against his window so they could be the first

Deck the halls with boughs of holly fa-la-la-la-la la-la-la-la Teenage mutant ninja turtles fa-la-la-la-la la-la-la-la I hope that gets stuck in your head for a while. A thing in my possession: A phone running a linux distribution in my continuing quest to do simple things harder than is necessary, I now have a phone running linux. Specifically I have the Google Pixel 3a, which is a roughly 5 year old phone, and it is running Ubuntu Touch, the fork of the (relatively) popular linux distro designed specifically for smart phones. The pixel 3a, while certainly not designed for lunix happens to be one of the most compatible phones for the operating system. After switching to Linux for my daily driver home computer a year or two ago, I thought it would be interesting to try it on my phone too. But let me tell you, this phone won't be replacing my equally old iphone any time soon. Getting the OS wasn't particularly difficult for me, but that is mostly because I have unlocked a bootloader on an android phone previously. Before switching to ios and the iphone, I had installed CyanogenMod on my then current android phone. Android, the operating system does technically allow you to install other OSes instead of it on most of their phones, but they don't make it obvious or easy. The fact that I had done it before made it slightly easier, but I still had to watch or read multiple tutorials, and the process failed at least twice. Once I did get it up and running, the core OS works pretty well! The problem is everything else. There is an app store that can download apps specifically for the OS, but the selection is pretty bare. There are  some key utilities but a lot of the stuff I would want to us is either not there or a homebrew webapp. My original thought would be that most of the apps I could want to us also have web interfaces, which is true, but also the developers have tried harder and harder to make their respective mobile web experiences worse to push people to using an app instead. Which only works if there is an app to download. At least with Cyanogen which I had used perviously, I could download and install andorid apps ands they would be almost 100% compatible. No such luck here. Instead if I want to run an android app, I have to completely emulate an android phone inside my phone as the equivalent of a virtual machine. Which I can do! I did! I gopt it set up, but frankly the thing that broke me was that I couldn't copy and paste between the core Linux OS and my VM-android OS. Copy and paste is such a basic functionality that is actually really complicated. But it needs to work. Who knows, maybe I'll install LineageOS, the successor to Cyanogen and play with that for a while. Poorly Organized Thoughts on Arbitrage Arbitrage, if you are unfamiliar, is the practice of buying something at one price with the intent of (nearly) simultaneously selling it for a higher price somewhere else. It's ostensibly the purest way to make a profit, but economists will tell you it's kind of impossible to actualy pull off at any scale. But I did find an example of someone doing just that while I was browsing ebay not too long ago. But first I have to talk about Magic The Gathering. Sorry. MtG is a collectible trading card game where a player mostly collects cards in two ways: randomized packs purchased directly from the publisher, or from other players who already have the cards you want (which originally came from randomized packs.) This means there is an incredibly large secondary market for the cards where the common ones can be picked up for a few cents and the rarest ones can fetch hundreds or thousands of dollars. It's a daunting game because if you want to really get competitive you have to pour a lot of money into the game. I've played it a bit over the years, but always extremely casually. I just didn't have the effort or money to put into getting good. But there are other ways to play magic for a lot cheaper. One of the most common is through what is called a Cube, or a carefully collected set of cards that can be used for casual games between friends. The idea is that you're only ever playing against the other games in the set, which means you don't have to always be on the chase for the latest and greatest and most powerful cards or metagame. Instead you treat it more like a board game with a limited scope. Cubes can be pretty expensive to build, but the cheaper ones are on the scale of $50-$150 depending on the cards and the size of it. Plus the effort of tracking down and purchasing all those cards individually. Or, you could just buy a premade cube from someone else. So I was browsing ebay to see if anybody had cubes for sale, and to my surprise there were a few. Most of them were "Chaos cubes" with the idea that they were just a pile of mostly random cards for cheap just to make the count. These feel like a waste, because the whole point of a cube is that it is crafted to have a fair amount of compatibility between the cards. But the other cubes caught my eye were ones with actual card lists. These tended to be more expensive, probably because you knew what was going to be in them. But the flip side of the card list is that I could price out what those individual cards would cost if I bought them elsewhere. So I did. There are some online magic stores that let you upload a list of cards and buy them from a bunch of individual sellers. The sellers are a mix of game stores with huge inventories and individuals just buying and selling from their personal collections. It's a cool system! And the sort of thing that makes a community successful. So I uploaded the card list and priced out one of the prebuilt cubes I found on ebay. Unsurprisingly it was cheaper. A lot cheaper. Like half the price, including shipping from 15 different stores. So it occured to me this would be a (theoretically) easy way to make money on Magic. Buy a bunch of specific cheap cards on the open marketplaces, then bundle them together for rubes who don't know any better on ebay and make money. This was arbitrage in action! The real problem, as it always is, is scale. Sure  one could make $75 bucks per cube sold, but how many cubes can you seriously expect to sell? The volume isn't likely to be particularly high, even as the cost to get started is so low. Stuff I'm Watching Godzilla Minus One is pretty good. The US godzilla movies have been more spectacle than anything for a long while. But this Japanese Import from Toho, the original studio to make Godzilla movies works really well. It's a giant monster movie, sure, but also a meditation on postwar PTSD, where the monster is a metaphor. I saw this in the theaters and it was absolutly worth it. I also made an episode of my podcast about it (full of spoilers.) On the opposite end of the spectrum I watched Round and Round, a Hallmark Hanukkah movie about a young woman who gets stuck in a time loop on the 7th night of Hanukkah. Like all Hallmark movies it is patently silly and doesn't take anything too seriously. It's full of coincidence and contrivance and takes the premise of a time loop about as unseriously as I can imagine a movie about a time loop doing. And I've seen a lot of movies about time loops. I mostly watched this because it stars Vic Michaelis, who is a comedian I really like from their work on Dropout, and they bring a lot to the lead role here. Is it a good movie? Probably not. Is it a fun way to spend 90 minutes? Why not. This Week's Crazy Ex-Girlfriend Song of the Week is California Christmastime Here's a picture of a cat
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KD^3C^3 - 20231217 All the dishes got broken and the car kept driving

If everything is working correctly, you should be receiving this from my new newsletter page, Postcard. If it's not going correctly, you probably won't see this. A thing in my possession: A New Notebook I bought a new notebook this week. For the past few years I've been doing a variant on bullet journaling in a series of blank notebooks. I say it is a variation of bullet journaling, but the very nature of a bullet journal is that it's meant to be adjustable to your needs. But I've slowly cast off the various tools in the bullet journal toolbox, and I don't know that what I do can really be called that anymore. The key features of a bullet journal, as I understand it are: the index, spreads, monthly/weekly/daily logs. When one is setting up a bullet journal you're supposed to start with the index, which you complete as you fill up the journal. You add page numbers that relevant things show up on. Then there are spreads, which are composed of two consecutive pages, and meant to serve as a project worskspace, these can be spread throughout the entire journal and you use the index to keep track of them. finally there are the logs, typically monthly, and daily, with the option for weekly. I used all of these at one point or another, but as time has gone on my journal has more and more just become a daily log. So I'm going to try something new. Bullet Journals are by their very nature very free form. That's fine, good even. But it means it's very easy for me to fall out of using it. So I dtopped using it as intended. But this week I bought a new notebook based on the Theme System. This is an idea coined by CPG Grey, has a whole video about it, so I'm not going to explain it here. But I have a problem. And that's timing. My current notebook is going to run out of space at my current rate by the end of the year, and I don't really want to start the Theme Journal until the start of the year. This isn't huge as far as problems go, but I now feel like I have to ration pages in my existing notebook. I keep asking myself, is this worth putting down? It feels like going on a journaling fast before jumping into a new system. Poorly Organized Thoughts on: Showrunners  I've been thinking about showrunners a lot lately. In particular, how the ideas of a showrunner on modern TV shows has started to shape the way we talk about those shows. Or at least the way I think about them. I first really became aware of the position of showrunner in the common usage during the 90s. This was the period of the early internet intersecting with pop culture. And two of the shows that dominated the discussions I saw were The X-Files and Buffy The Vampire Slayer. Both of these shows were revolutionary in their time, for a variety of reasons. The most well known, is probably the idea of interspersing serialized episodes telling a larger story with episodic standalone adventures. These episodes even became known as Monster-Of-The-Week stories in the broader conversation because of Buffy and the X-Files. The X-Files had a slightly larger differentiation between it's "arc" episodes and MotW episodes, while Buffy would often blend them a little more closely together, while telling a story that spanned the entire season. I could go on a tangent about how the pendulum has often swung to far towards serialization in most TV making these days (sometimes the strongest praise I can give a show is "It knows what an episode is") but I'm not here to rant about 10-hour-movie-itis, I've done that before. What I want to think about instead today is how both of these shows had a mythological being at their center: the showrunner. Joss Whedon on Buffy and Chris Carter on X-Files were both elevated by the fandom to the sole creative force behind everything that happened on these shows. These shows were created by a large group of writers, directors, actors and other crew, but everything that happened good or bad was laid at the feet of the showrunner. TV Tropes, a website that started life as a Buffy Fan Page (really) even has a name for when the showrunner clarifies something ambiguous or unknown about a TV show: Word of God. In the years since these shows became behemoths of media, reshaping the entire media landscape, it has also become clear that Carter and Whedon are both, well, assholes. Carter had actually been sued in the 90s for sexual harassment (among other things) and Whedon's reputation as someone unsafe for women to be around has only grown with time. Their behavior was inexcusable, even if it wasn't actually unusual. And I think, part of the reason they were able to get away with it is because they were seen as irreplaceable by the fandom. Even now those two shows are inexorably tied to those two men. But making a TV dhow is a lot of work, and it's never the work of a single person. Buffy had 20+ writers and a similar number of directors over the course of seven seasons. And while Joss Whedon was the most common among both categories, it's not by a wide margin. And I certainly don't know the names James Contner or Rebecca Kirshner who come in at number 2 for directing and writing respectively. And the thing is, this trend has continued to this day. I can list off 30+ TV shows where I know the name of the showrunner, but nobody else on staff either directing or writing. This way of thinking about showrunners as the auteur, or final authority, has flattened the way we think about the way TV shows are made. This only serves the ones who are being centered in the conversations, and further protects them from consequences to their terrible behavior. There are some instances of this changing. Justin Roiland got fired from two shows he created after credible allegations of sexual assault came to light, and marvel fired Jonathan Majors, who was slated to be the next Thanos level villain in their film series, fater similar allegations. But how many others are still out there, being protected by their status as the most important part of making a tv show? If I could wave a magic wand and change anything about about TV Criticism in the 90s, it would be to treat creative teams on TV shows like rock bands, instead of pop stars. Sure Taylor Swift writes her own music, but she also has a group of others that help her create the final product. But contrast that with the Beatles or They Might Be Giants, where there might be a driving creative at the center (John and Paul, or John and John respectively) the rest of the band is equally known to the fans, and it's understood that all the work is a collaborative endeavor. I don't think this would solve everything wrong with fandoms and toxic men abusing their powers, but I do think it would be an improvement. This Week's Crazy Ex-Girlfriend Song of the Week is the Crazy Ex-Girlfriend Season 1 Theme Here's a picture of a cat
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